Still... no Balai post

Chun Ai's fault :P

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Yes, supposed to do EoM now, after getting my Da Jie (who's ironically an English teacher, judging from MY English standards) to check my translation of the 天涯人我行 Zaobao article. It was a disaster in the end, resulting in me discovering silly and retarded errors such as...

"'After eating the bugs, we couldn't have our dinner.' Chorused everybody, frowning."

Must be some aftermath of waking up at 2am to do such language-related work. My mind is seriously not programmed to do such things efficiently. Give me some science/math-related work, I'll complete within a short-time (probably). Give me an essay question to write, I'll take ages going around to search for the so-called inspiration which never come and my linguistic abilities will just hinder my speed and flow of writing.

Seriously, after letting Da Jie edit my work and mum correcting some Chinese terms, I've sort of lost all my confidence with my linguistic abilities. Being in the GP remedial class doesn't really console me, although it's kind of fun to stay for another 70 minutes to have Chang Hong and the others entertain me, haha. It really amazes me how God has assisted me from time to time in Secondary school, helping me get A2 for English despite my really chui standards... hmm. Really wonder whether I'll grow older to be like my dad, who is somewhat hindered by his ability to express in words, always getting corrected or suanned by my mum.

Maybe I should just stop brooding over it and let Him take the lead.

I must say that I'm really one who's very sensitive to people's action and will get very affected by some things. I'm usually skeptical about things, thinking that there's something with this, with that... I don't know, maybe I just strongly believe in the notion that 'Body language tells it all'. Kinda bad at times, especially when I'm very affected by comments from people around me, sometimes even up to the extent that I couldn't really accept what was said about it.

Some kind of self-confession, yeah? That's something I've learnt recently. Maybe when you take a very objective view of yourself you'll see what's really wrong with you and you just have to change it.

Hmm, shared this with my Da Jie when she abducted me to AMK Central's Sumo House to treat a meal, oh yes, thankyou!

Regarding my post as 組長 in TQ, I can say that I've absolutely no idea whether I'm really the right person to be chosen to do the job. Look at the other 3 (YJ, Ting, blackblack WHITEWHITE!) - all really caring and loving people, I must say. But me? Everyone in TQ probably sees me as a retard who does nothing whole day but "study" (yeah right) and play guitar. Being randomly selected to take care of the welfare of the TQ hmm, really takes a double blow on me? 雙重打擊!

OHYA did I tell you? Up till now, even my family members still do question the fact that I'm chosen to be a leader, to care for TQ, and one in charge of welfare, when I don't seem to care, don't seem to be compassionate, don't even help out with chores, don't even this, don't even that. Oh wells...

That issue has been brooding me for ages. However Da Jie tells me, "Hmm yes you should really just rely on His and not your own abilities. You should not let what others think of you limit His works for His Kingdom through you. And yes, you may be oversensitive and thinking too much anyway."

I'm once again reassured that whatever is not impossible in our eyes, God will make a way, when we believe and entrust everything to Him. I don't know whether any 門徒班 students remember a sharing by Jieshi, but she said something like this...

"I used to be one who is sensitive to others' views and opinions. But after Disciple I've come to realise that pleasing others and changing others' opinions about you isn't the most important issue, but to glorify God in your actions, ... (can't remember, she said a whole lot there)"

I guess I should learn from her too. Slowly, bit by bit, I shall change this very very bad habit of mine.

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On a happier note, caught scenes of Olympics Closing Ceremony just now. I was so excited when they included a performance of Led Zeppelin classic "Whole Lotta Love" in the London 2012 part! But just too bad, Robert Plant wasn't the one singing, but good enough, at least the old but still active and sweating Jimmy Page was happily playing the solo on his Gibson Les Paul. But still, I see no link of that song with the theme on Olympics although it has everything got to do with London since Led Zeppelin is the legendary British rock band back in the late 1960s to 1970s.

Alright yes, shall stop procrastinating and complete my EoM. God bless!