the answer, is blowing in the wind.

2009-12-28T12:14:00.003+08:00

And on my 101st post, I've decided to move.
And there we are.

2009-11-22T19:52:00.002+08:00

大家最近還好嗎?

非華族的朋友們, 抱歉!
華文水平跟非華族朋友差不多一樣的朋友們, 抱歉!
電腦沒有安裝閱讀中文軟件的朋友們, 抱歉!
不識繁體字的朋友們, 也非常抱歉!

因為這將會是一個你看不懂的 post.

'A'水準差不多要接近尾身了. 8天, 3分考卷.
可是, 感覺'A'彷彿結束了, 一直不斷使用電腦...
哈哈還真是一種解脫.

經過了18歲的生日, 才終於看出, 誰才是那些真正關心你的朋友.
謝謝你們.
　

Dear Prudence

2009-10-27T15:31:00.003+08:00

Dear Prudence...
Won't you come out to play?

"No, I've got my 'A' Levels to prepare for."
*takes out a thick file of H2 Economics notes and study studying about Market Failure*

That's all, till the next time!
Before I go...

Really nice song, take some time to listen to it before you dismiss the song as "just another oldie sung by an old old band"!

Bye!

Revivial 4.0

2009-08-03T13:43:00.004+08:00

(Photo courtesy of Patrick)

Haha this is an idiotic shot of me, hope it didn't scare you too much when you see this!

But it really had been great time spent with the 4-8 peeps Yesterday (all my troubles seem so far away now it looks as though they're here to stay oh I believe in YESTERDAY! :D), quite a mini gathering I must say, with only 6 people turning up in total, but I can't deny I'd great time. At least some catching with Thomas and SK since it has been ages since I've seen them (okay fine the last time is Majestia XXIV). As for the other 3... I see them everyday in school so never mind, haha!

Kite flying in Marina Barrage was totally epic fail because of the stupid kite that they sell over that, we spent 2 hours trying to make it float only realising that it's not meant to be flown that way because according to the Certis Cisco security guard (who happened to be kaypohing around!) that kind of kite is some STUNT kite. HAHA! Picture 4 gay boys trying to get a stupid kite flying. That's us!

(Oh yeah did I mention that the kite has 2 strings attached to it? That's the reason why it's hard to fly...)

Will get the photos up once Thomas uploads them on Facebook or something.

The rest of time was spent talking nonsense everywhere, from Marina Barrage to Manhattan Fish Market @ Plaza Sing... Eating and playing cuckoo guess-the-song-I-am-singing games are quite fun actually :D Camwhoring around with 2 DSLRs was kinda, er, weird -.-

SOMEone just told me that she was such a good girl answering all of Mr. J Chan's questions during Physics tutorial HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

It seemed like the most boring type of outing you can ever imagine but well, I feel that it's really good time spent catching up and talking with friends. I don't deny that not all my friends are cool or interesting or what people deem as 'socially acceptable'... But at least people are more real back then, we don't try so hard to please one another, get into the 'in' social circle, at least people genuinely care for one another, people still do remember that you're not in school and bother to ask where and how you are, and they do so not because you owe them money or lecture notes...

One fine Saturday after TQ, YJ and I were on our way home on Circle Line after dinner. We were talking a bit about friends in JC, and I was thinking about how certain people change as they change environment. I guess I've to agree to this, that in a certain way, as people grow older, they love to gossip about other people behind their backs. Kinda disgusting to see people trying to befriend the others and bitch about them the next minute they are gone. And it saddens me furthermore when that the guys who were aimed at still think that those people who talk bad about him/her are their genuine friends. The thought of it really irks me, but this is how human beings work. So I guess, people in one way or another destroy genuine friendship as they grow up, and the ironical thing is that they complain that the friends that they make in JC (as opposed to Secondary School) are so not genuine. Idiots.

And to those people who don't want to hang out with their Secondary School friends because they THINK that they are uncool or whatsoever, you guys are idiots too.

Haha to end off this post on a lighter note, I went to CGH for NS follow-up medical checkup for the 2nd time. It's a waste of time really, imagine all the time spent travelling there and back (2x 45min per session) and the time wasted doing the tests! Never mind, I'm still a happy boy because I passed Econs for CT2. 37/80, it's an E, a disappointing decline in results but it's okay, I've learnt to take such stuffs much more lightly over these years I guess :)

I've gotten a really cute bookmark (the funny thing is I don't read much) from CYLS Yesterday during Sunday School. It has a prayer on it, I guess it's really crucial for us especially in light of A Levels which we are all ranting about:

"Lord, help me to remember that nothing is going to happen to me today that You and I together can't handle."

And it has my all-time favourite Bible verse behind it. :D

Hello Goodbye

2009-07-27T08:49:00.000+08:00

The Beatles - Hello Goodbye

This is one song with the most simple and nonsensical lyrics I've ever seen... (Can compare to nursery rhymes)
But I like, my style :D
Haha so much for a long awaited post after 4 months -.-

五月天.

2009-04-30T21:51:00.003+08:00

明天就是五月天.
不過, 明天還有一整天的練習...

我發現, 當某些事情發生在你自己身上後, 你才會懂得體會其他人經歷此事的感受.
你也會曉得如何看待這些事, 曉得怎樣開導別人, ...

還記得兩年前, 2007年的4月10日, CHSSB 在新加坡大禮堂 (SCH) 遇到了歷來最大的挫折.
還記得那時我們在表演之後還以為自己肯定是留住了2005年奪得的榮譽金牌.
還記得我們聽到 "SILVER" 之後的反應.
那種震撼. 失望. 失落. 無助. 無奈.
還記得我們經過許多自我檢討, 反省... 終於明白,
七個人的一個決定, 篡改不了我們對音樂的熱誠.
七個人的一個決定, 根本不算甚麼.

(喔, 聽說最高跟最低分數都沒有算在總分里, 所以實際上只有五個人)

六天. 只剩六天.

行嗎?

A Post-Youth Poem.

2009-03-23T22:51:00.003+08:00

後青春期的詩 - 五月天

当烟雾随晨光飘散枕畔的湖已风乾
期待已退化成等待而我告别了突然
当泪痕勾勒成遗憾回忆夸饰著伤感逝水比喻时光荏苒
　　
终於我们不再为了生命狂欢　为爱情狂乱
然而青春彼岸　盛夏正要一天一天一天的灿烂
　　
(然后呢一起走吧)
　　
谁说不能让我　此生唯一自传　如同诗一般
无论多远未来　读来依然一字一句一篇都灿烂

让天空解释著蔚蓝　浮云定义著洁白
落花铺陈一片红色地毯　迎接我们到未来　

精彩未完的未来.

...

美麗的歌詞.
這首歌象徵著我們, 告別青春, 迎接老陳, 成熟.
每次聽到這首歌, 感觸良多,
不禁想到, 自己很快就會離開BAND, 準備'A'水準會考, 離開VJC, 等待服兵役, ...
感覺自己, 突然變老了. (雖然在下只有僅僅的十七歲... -.-)

希望這首歌也帶給你同樣的感動. (不懂的詞就查字典咯... :P)

Come Away, with Him.

2009-03-23T22:46:00.003+08:00

Come Away With Me -

Lyrics

Reminds us once again that whenever we've to face anything, we can take Shelter at His side.

Amen.

And so this post marks the end of Term 1

2009-03-13T21:28:00.002+08:00

It is amazing how God uses our daily life experience to remind us of His presence.

I went into H3 NTU Numbers and Matrices thinking that I'm alone.
I came out with 4 new friends (okay fine 3), especially the two whom I always talk cock with during lectures and tutorials so that time will pass faster.
And I came out with a 29/50 for my Test 1!
That's really good, considering that I totally do not deserve it (because I did revision only two days ago?!)

I used to dread picking up the piccolo.
Well, I still do. But not so much anymore.
I thought the Pictures was totally a suicide attempt for a JC band.
Yes it is. But hey, at least flute section can play it at 60bpm now? (eeyer 60bpm sound so Audition, sound so EUGENE, HAHAHA!) That's really not bad yknow, 100's not that far away after all.
I hated sectionals. Because I've to lead them. And past unhappy experiences had made me lose my confidence as the SL to conduct sectionals.
But I regained my courage, and yes, Flute Section expanded so we've like 9 flutes in total?! (Okay fine 10 including Yundi) BIG.

(YJ just called and Eugene is with him! Mind you it's 10:18PM and they're outside shopping for Eugene's slippers. ULTIMATE SCANDALOUS, TSKTSK!)

One week ago, I really dreaded the coming of CT1.
I know I'm going to fail Econs; the fact that I haven't been practising or doing anything related to GP doesn't help either.
Yesterday, I came out of the exam hall, knowing that I've forgotten to square a value for the 2nd time in the whole CT1, that I've mixed this and that up, that I would fail Econs, that I may not get the As I dream for...

But it didn't seem to matter anymore. (well after all it's only CT1 right? :D)

Ya they may seem like small little microscopic problems compared to other people's issues, but hey, isn't that the point? Make the issues seem small, see the BIGGER PICTURE. That Someone who has The Authority is in control. That He's be our Guidance, Support.

And like what Jenny GS says, life will be more joyous, like this ---> :D (Even though it's hard to be joyous with a stupid sty right there beside your right eye, it is a temporary thing after all, oh well...

And so this post marks the end of Term 1. And this post so do not make sense. God bless!

ORIENTATION 2009

2009-02-09T22:59:00.003+08:00

Yesyes guys, stop telling me to update yo :P

(Alright, just imagine Cheng Wei's face is there okay? HAHA!)

Something interesting: I was in A3 for last year's O1. (O2 not counted because I ponned all the way HAHA) For non-VJC students, our orientation groupings are split into OGs V, I, C, T, O, R, I, A. There will be some theme every year and so the initials always represent different names each year. And each OG is split into 8 sub OGs. So I belonged to A3, Avalon Apollo. And here I am, back in A3, Allorix Alfie this year, as an OGL!

And you guys really rock, freshmen and OGLs!
Jing Wei : the one making everyone laugh all the time, even when his voice's totally gone!
Felicia : the one who CLAIMS (yes, claims) that she's er... pretty? :X
Katharine : the one who keeps us OGLs sane!
Chun Yong : the one forever leading cheers for Alfie!
Cheng Wei : the one who loves to sing/play basketball/go choir room!
Charlton : the SJAB PTI from CATHOLIC HIGH! YEAH
Kiran : the cooperative one!
Young Yee : the one who's very good at stealing bandanas!
Suzanna : the one from BAND! Haha and the one who always initiate chatterings in Alfie so that it's lively even without OGLs!
Jiang Mei : another lively one and she's in my junior class!
Vanessa : the one who has the same surname LAM and is from NCPS!
Renee : very nice person!
Hanna : another very nice person!
Sophie : very friendly Chinese scholar who likes to kachiao me (e.g. laugh at me dancing)

Haha I can go on and on for three days and nights how great Alfie but I shall not (you won't be interested anyway) BUT REALLY! They are a great bunch of enthu people who's really nice :D I'm soooosooosooosoosooo glad that I'm one of their OGLs and I'm also sosooosoosoososooosoooooooooooo glad that I'm working alongside with these other 3 OGLs who are unique in their ways and did lots of stuff for the sub OG!

It's finally over, I really don't know whether it's something to be glad or sad about, but one thing for sure - it seemed to be telling me that I'm growing old, hahaha.

Anyway there's this Post-Orientation Syndrome/Trauma/whatsoever going on everywhere, especially in our class with 15 OGLs - we associate everything and anything that the teachers/anyone say with school cheers, OG cheers or even mass dance verbal cues :P

For example...
"Hey! Where are we supposed to go for Econs Tutorial?"
"WHERE? Up in my head! WHERE? Up in my head!" ("I've Got The VJ Spirit" Cheer)
"..."

Or another one, which happened during Econs Tutorial:
(T: Miss Tee, O: One of us S: 08S64 students)
T: "...(yadayada) Hey guys! We've to come back to reality, it's after Orientation, you guys have FOUR weeks left to CT1 and you guys lag by 8237489372145423859 tutorials..."
O: "But the reality sucks!"
S: "CREON THE SUCKERS CAN WE *suck in air* IT CREON THE SUCKERS YES WE CAN!" (OG Creon's Main Cheer)
T: "..."

My goodness, it's really hard to return to the sane mode after being "high on V power" for FIVE full days. (See la, so high on power until kena electric shock, now everyone CHAOTA already HAHAHA) Oh yes, did I mention that almost all the OGLs/freshmen (OGLs especially) got sunburnt after Sea Carnival on Friday and more than half got a real sexy voice? My skin was peeling so badly this morning when I repeatedly swipe my palm against the forehead dead dark coloured epidermis started falling all over the place like some weird dandruffs :P

No photos for that though, you can go check this out for some reference. Talking about bring shame to the alma mater... Oh well.

Alright the night's not young, gotta go! God bless everyone :D

Tolerance. I thank you for that :)

回顧展望

2009-01-11T18:33:00.000+08:00

Nope, nothing about the TQ program weeks ago, nothing about the combined 青少 program 2 days ago (in which I've to host the ice-breaking games), it's just simply my own little "回顧2008, 展望2009" time.

(Heh, yes people, so stop whining that I've not updated this blog okay!)

2008
A very different year from the others. Different in the sense that I've...

New school (VJC!)
New school curriculum (JC curriculum)
New work (heaps and heaps of tutorials?)
New people (classmates, bandmates, OG mates, yadayada...)
New class (08S64!)
New band (VJCSB)
New York (HAHAHAHAHA)
New environment (VJC environment -.-)
New responsibilities (church, school, ...)
New expectations (as above)
New cell group (POMEGRANATE!)
New serving position (SL, CGL, bassist/guitarist for 第二堂)
...
New support. (:

How do I start?

VJC is seriously, a different culture altogether from CHS. Maybe it's the having-girls-in-a-school part. Maybe it's the we-laugh-at-different-kind-of-stuffs part. Maybe it's the i-don't-really-like-sarcasm-humour part. Maybe it's the never-study-till-exam-comes part.

(Okay, Thomas and all my loyal readers are bugging me to update this place, PROPERLY. Hmm.)

Argh, but whatever it is, it has definitely been a tough year not only for me, but for all post-O's students to get adjusted to their pre-U lives (i don't discriminate Poly students with that statement WAHAHA) ... It's really not easily to adjust and step out of our comfort zones. And I really thank Him for guiding me through the year - decision-making, relations with friends and all. I thank Him for 08S64 and VJCSB too - I can't imagine a class even more bonded than ours and I can't imagine what would happen to me if I've ended up in Guitar too (probably I'd have an electric guitar or bass or sth? :D)

Church is all the same, not exactly maybe. For one I know, ever since I've become a TQ committee member, things do not seem easy - all of a sudden you've the responsibility of being an example for the younger ones to follow, you've to REALLY care for your group members, your people, your peers, argh you get the idea.

I never thought that I'm able to be a Cell Group Leader - honestly I'm not a people-person, like I'm not really into caring for people. But He has really changed my perspective - I don't have to be a people-person to do it, because this is for Him! To do this well I cannot use/only use my own abilities, but submit myself totally to Him! I thank Him in leading me for the year as a CGL leading POMEGRANATE and I thank POMEGRANATE too (yes you guys, this is for you if you're ever reading this). I'm sorry many a times I may not spend a lot of time bonding us guys together as a Christ body but I'm really glad your comments are pretty positive. Though we're no longer POMEGRANATE but I hope I've left an impact in you guys, that I've brought you guys closer to Him? (or maybe I've brought you guys hell lot of laughter HAHAHAHA) YEA!

Besides that, serving as a bassist/guitarist in 第二堂 was fruitful and all. I've seen a lot in Worship Ministry this year, this, that and everything. There are times I must admit that I was really disappointed at certain things, at the way people do things, ... but it's still a great experience all the same, worshipping Him in a different way.

Through this, I finally understood, worship is NOT and NEVER about the music - you can play the songs very well and all but if your heart's not there, it's all futile. Something very true about this is written in the book "Purpose-driven Life" by Rick Warren - "If worship were just music, then all who are nonmusical could never worship. Worship is far more than music." Playing in Worship Ministry is NEVER to show off your skills, because there's really nothing to show off since everyone out there putting up gigs are way way better than you (I mean for me la haha). I'm really glad that Worship Ministry has allowed me to learn this.

Yea. And You and you have been through this with me. I thank You and you.

2009

OGL
SYF
H3 NTU Math (Numbers and Matrices)
A Level Exams
Cell Group OBEDIENCE
Serving in 第二堂... With only 3 actual guitarist/bassist around.
Relations with parents
Relations with peers
Relations with siblings-in-Christ
Relationship

It's not going to be easy. 2008 was tough enough; 2009 will be even more busy for me, and for every JC2 student too. (even though some people won't have SYF, at least got A Levels right? ok Thomas keep quiet, I know you're having a good life in Poly topping your cohort every semester, haha!) But I must trust and obey no matter how difficult it is. I must trust Him. I must not give up on anything. And I believe I'll smile at the end of 2009, knowing that I've achieved what I've set out to do. Because He's with me, and all of us too.

With all these worries, I entrust all of them in His hands. Amen.

...

Anyway with this in mind... I'm going to school tmr. I'm SO looking for to lessons and homework luh -.- Haha but it's great to let your brains have a workout after not having done so for 2 months. Ah wells, it's all up in the perspective isn't it :D

God bless guys, off to do homework before I get slaughtered tomorrow!

"For this God is our God for ever and ever; He will be our guide even to the end." -Psalms 48:14

YEAH~

2009-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2009 PEOPLE.

For now I shall not say much, because I'm watching the Gaki No Tsukai Haunted Inn batsu (punishment) game... HAHAHAHAHAHA.

God bless you guys, whoever reading this. Shall write more later YEAH~

2008-12-17T01:49:00.001+08:00

怎麼每次都覺得自己跟大家好像脫了節那樣...

Traveller IQ Challenge

2008-12-05T13:25:00.002+08:00

Go try go try! It's pretty cool yknow... The questions at level 10 are quite alien actually :/
http://www.travelpod.com/traveler-iq/asia

SEVEN.

2008-12-05T12:46:00.004+08:00

7 days left.

Can we do it?

Can I make it?

Anyway...

VJCSB Proudly Presents: Not-So-Silent-Night (NSSN) 2008

When? 12th December 2008, 7.30pm
Where? VJC Performance Theatre
How to Go? Take Bus Svc 13, 16, 31, 36, 43, 48, 55, 76, 135, 196, 197 and follow the others
How Much? $10 ONLY (Compared to Majesta XXIII)
What to Expect? Repetoire of pieces: March 'Blue Sky', O Magnum Mysterium, Children's March, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star Variations, Prelude to A Celebration, Two for Christmas AND Galaxy Express 999. PLUS a very funny skit featuring a 公豬 (I'm so going to get slaughtered for this). Come if you want some nosebleed!
Why Should You Go? Because I've only sold 9 tickets and I need to sell 20!

Hmm, so to end of with a quote from the Wise,
"這是個千載難逢的好機會, 請萬勿錯過!"
(Such wise words from the Wise Sage...)

So please, contact me at 9xxxxxxx if you want the tickets! YAY :D

drools

2008-11-28T21:11:00.002+08:00

Say Hi to Yun Jie's bass, Ibanez ATK-300.

:D

...

Say Byebye to Yun Jie's bass, Ibanez ATK-300.

:(

But maybe I'll say Hi to Yun Jie's bass again. He's very kindly offered to lend me that bass you see in the picture (Ibanez ATK-300, for the 3rd time) the next time I need. Hmm, as for when... Well, it all depends on Mr. Leonard Tan now.

Strange huh, what does it got to do with Mr. Tan? Shall tell you more when things are confirmed (Or even, if things can work out or not). And I may not be borrowing from Yun Jie this time round, maybe Charissa. (Wild and random thoughts about me getting to play different people's bass WAHAHAHAA)

Okay, enough nonsensical writings in this post now, till tmr then, God bless!

2008-11-18T12:54:00.002+08:00

I'm alright now, thanks to everyone who asked/listened to me grumble and ramble. Thankyou!

...

Anyway, "Music Cafe" for TQ is coming up this Saturday. Held practice with my POMEGRANATE cell group members yesterday afternoon. Seriously it wasn't too good but oh wells, everyone's playing together for the first time and none are experienced (i.e. play for Worship Ministry every other week) other than me and many saw the score for the first time too so I don't think it's too bad either! At least we managed to pull through HALF a song (out of two) without breaking down yo. Kudos to Leying Yihui Jingwen Jinchi Beile and of course... ME! :D

Actually I'm not too hopeful about "Music Cafe", after all Cell Group Performance is flawed in the first place because firstly, not everyone in the four cell groups have the ability/want to perform; secondly, everyone is playing together for the first time, there will definitely be coordination problems and thirdly, it's very difficult to get so many people to play/sing together (for my group there's 9). But hmmm of course this is seem from my very own point of view, which is judging within human's ability and not His ability. Haha oh well...

But if "Music Cafe" is really not so successful, never mind la, just do our best, have fun, play around, invite some friends and grow in fellowship in Christ? Yes.

...

Back to helping Wei Li write his electric guitar tabs for "Music Cafe" songs before going off to.... hahaha.

(給) 媽的.

2008-11-14T12:22:00.002+08:00

這不是一句粗話, 這只是一個 post 的開端.

...

2007年5月12日. 8PM.

那天是五月的第二個禮拜六. 我的手機接到了一則簡訊. 打開看看, 是二姐發送來提醒我要去烏節路(ORCHARD RD)的 BORDERS 書店買她的禮物 - 那一本她要的瑜珈練習書, 附送參考VCD.

想一想, 是喔, 差點忘了這回事, 剛才和團契的人吃晚餐, 之後就跑去看他們到碧山第八站 (JUNCTION 8) 四樓那裡打電動了. 於是我就跟其他人告了別, 就匆匆忙忙得搭地鐵 (MRT) 到烏節站.

趕到那裡, 才發現她要的那本書籍英文寫的. 她看不懂英文, VCD 和圖像都是金毛女郎做瑜珈, 又沒有華文版, 她哪裏會喜歡? 所以設想周到的我就打通電話問問二姐, 問她如何是好. 她說: "哎呀那你就想辦法囉, 這種簡單的事也要我幫你處理!"

好, 很好, 我就自己一個人站在 BORDERS 外面想辦法. 想要直接回家, 又怕被二姐罵, 又怕令她失望, 怎樣才好?

想了一會兒, 突然想起 WHEELOCK PLACE 的 BORDERS 附近好像有一間纪伊国屋书店 (KINOKUNIYA). 那裏應該不像 BORDERS 那樣只賣英文書籍吧! 為了不要再麻煩二姐, 我打了通電話問問團契的人, 才知道 KINOKUNIYA 就在烏節路的義安城 (NGEE ANN CITY). 二姐也同意說只要是瑜珈書, 她應該不會介意. 太棒了, 買書一事終於有著落了.

到了 KINOKUNIYA 的華文保健書籍書櫃, 發現那裏實在有好多好多瑜珈書籍. 隨便挑一本有圖象說明, 附送VCD的, 就了事了. 不過... 糊塗的我竟然忘了自己沒剩多少錢! 原本帶來買 BORDERS 那本書籍的錢, 根本就不夠. 還記得當時我還剩 $24.95... (大概啦) 那本我想要買的書是大約 $27. 怎樣買?! 哎呀.

最後, 我還是決定買下一本沒有附送VCD的瑜珈書籍. 我也沒有打電話問二姐那是否符合她的心意. 隨便啦, 反正也都是瑜珈書籍, 她應該不會介意吧.

趕回家時, 已經 10.00PM. 我汗流滿臉打開門時, 原本是要給她一個驚喜, 可是, ...

"為甚麼這樣遲回家?"
"喔, 買你的母親節禮物嘛. 看看喜不喜歡?"
"... 怎麼不是我要的瑜珈書? 這本又沒有VCD!"
"因為你要的那本是英文的, 怕你看不懂, 然後我跑到義安城的 KINOKUNIYA 又不夠錢買有VCD的..."
"都不是我要的, 我不要收!"

說了這話, 她就把我花兩小時跑了整個烏節路才買到的瑜珈書仍在沙發上, 走進房間.

二姐說: "哎呀妳也真是笨的, 也不會打電話問問我到底可不可以..."

聽二姐說, 隔天早上, 她已經把我買的瑜珈書仍進垃圾桶. 她看書本還那麼新, 這樣就丟掉有點浪費, 就把她拾起收起來.

...

無論我做甚麼, 都好像得不到你的許可.
我需要鼓勵時, 你就只懂怎樣把我踩扁.

參加BAND是這樣,
SYF時是這樣,
'O'水準時是這樣,
要彈吉他時是這樣,
決定事奉時是這樣,
選學校時是這樣,
去紐約時是這樣,
要...時是這樣,
BAND要表演時是這樣,
高中第一個考試, 還是這樣.

現在, 也是這樣, 從來沒改變過.

你認為你了解我. 是嗎?
你說你對我很好. 有嗎?
你真的以為, 供應我的生活起居飲食, 就是疼我嗎?
這只不過是你的負擔而已.

憑良心說:
為甚麼不讓我去烏敏島?
為甚麼不讓我半夜到家?
為甚麼不讓我去參加其他人可以做的事?
為甚麼起初不讓我事奉?
為甚麼不讓我...?

其實, 也只不過是怕我出事, 連累了你而已.
對不對?

"養大一個兒子來氣自己."
這句話我也會講.
來, 告訴我, 你對我的態度何時好過?
甚麼東西出差錯, 就罵.
講我頂嘴, 你又有曾幾何時仔細聆聽我的解釋?
講我無理, 你又有曾幾何時在你不對時跟我說聲道歉?
沒有人說你, 不代表沒有不贊同我說的話.
他們只是不敢說而已.

我是人. 我需要家人鼓勵, 關懷, 讚賞, 不是一堆沒完沒了的譴責.
我承認, 我也有許多錯的時候.
我已經嚐試改過了.
你卻從來也沒有認同.
我需要母愛.
我有個母親.
我怎麼感覺不到...?

...

從此, 我再也沒有親自賣過一份禮物給她. 反正買了她也不會領情, 買來幹嘛?

Replies to tags. All the way from 20th May 2008.

2008-11-13T21:50:00.002+08:00

[aka Ms Yao] Ms Yao visits my blog? *gasps* oh anyway yesyes, cathigh concert encores never disappoint anyone okay! haha.
[thomas] HELLO hairy!
[ingmar] YAY FULL DAY!
[nonplussed] i'd blogged about Majestia XXIII! sorry if that post kinda disappointed you though haha... full of my emo thoughts :P
[melphinkung2003] MUACKS MUACKS my fellow bus 43 kaki! haha how's... ~~China trip~~ OP?

(oh man i feel retarded replying tags five months ago, like who bothers to read right haha!)

[ingmar] i've blogged about Majestia already! not for Balai trip though :P
[thomas] it's about time YOU blog proper stuffs on your blog, POLY BOY!
[AMEILA] CANNOT AH :P
[Yuling] linked!
[lky] it's okay! just come for NSSN :D i visit your blog once per day! be honoured my friend :D
[Guest] SOMEone.
[person hu call u twit] yes Jin Chi, very cute of you!
[melina!] hi melina! i haven't linked you yet :( but it's okay, i highly doubt that you'll actually remember the existence of this tag, or this blog, or even this person typing (who was the leader of OHYA in Connect! Camp)
[ABBY!] yes neighbour hi! i haven't linked you too :( and yes, you should recognise this new photo on top now! but i highly doubt that you'll actually visit this blog anyway :P
[sheng kang] yes, thankyou, and no! the last phone call i made was er, a week ago? haha!
[jingwen] yes thankyou and PLEASE REPLY ASAP ABOUT MUSIC CAFE!
[ingmar] so rude tsktsk! shouldn't have relinked luh!
[SISTER] yes you bamboo :P then come more often! hahahahahahaha.
[chunai] hello ~~chuNai~~ chunAi! sorry for troubling you regarding worship ytd!
[renee] yes, Renee Nicole Ng Yun Wen! i still remember your full name luh -.-
[weizhen] yes, my PW mate, wassup with having NO LINK and RANDOM posts yo? 五月天's 軋車 is really nice what :( HAHA no more purple scarf from my super superior OG Allorix for you! :P
[AMEILA] goodnight pigpig!
[ingmar] renee's your imaginary friend ingmar... like xiaoming
[wEEIEEN!] WHAT people mahjong pro, not happy is it! :P
[jinchi] about the inconvenience it's okay :D and PLEASE REPLY ASAP ABOUT MUSIC CAFE!
[ABBY!] haha what's so funny compassvale drive?! it's a road beside my house, yours too -.-
[Guestjialing`] uh... okay... (SUPER NICE?) hmm...
[ingmar] i updated! replied to your tags somemore luh.
[AMEILA] (: --> retarded!
[SISTER] yes seezhuzhu bob hornies, visit more often!
[moyi] YAY BALAI!
[chunai] RANDOM!
[chunai] no you're not angel-less!
[AMEILA] i was on the ferry, yay! :D
[ingmar] there it is, the balai post! (somewhat luh, i'm lazy yo.)
[thomas] wise words from a sage *vomits*
[Moyi] haha i didn't bother to!
[chunai] don't be sad! send your lappy to the repairman!~
[JiaLing] cya on sat too! (the tag always applies) :P
[leying] relink to where! haha! and PLEASE REPLY ASAP ABOUT MUSIC CAFE!
[ingmar] haha don't give up! peace, joy, laughter, hope :D
[sheng kang & ingmar] you guys are weird?
[ingmar] my blog is alive and kickin' yo!
[vidh] HELLO VIDHU! Ci Yi misses you!
[chunai] THUMB
[yj] i updated OKAY!
[chunai] as the wise says, "brother ho! brother ho, ho! brother better than partner!"
[Moyi] or hor. you look down on YJ!
[my] yesyesyesyes. and your 阿扁 just got into jail and he's going to starve himself!
[lam] you're so cute! with your bangs LOLOL
[ingmar] better than you, retarded ol' man!
[yj] haha nope. just a retard who used my name to tag, in front of me :/
[ingmar] pot calling kettle black? *shrugs*
[Ber Fong] linked! i guess it differs sch to sch ba. it's okay! don't be sad :D
[nonplussed] haha PW's SO OVER. who cares~
[ingmar] welcome to the jungle? :D
[thomas] why you change your smileys from =) to (: ?!?!?! now look like some retard like that :( haha yes, "the Change we need" :/
[agnes] eh my blog is SERIOUS de can... when i say quote from the Wise, really quote from the Wise one okay! mai siao siao. cya on Saturday!
[tingSQUARE] haha i'm too lazy to find out the codes to key in the SQUARE. anyway thanks for asking yesterday!
[Jinchi] hey at least i hyperlinked to my previous post (like a year ago) to clear your doubts OKAY! haha and another reminder. PLEASE REPLY ASAP ABOUT MUSIC CAFE! :P

Will you still go to the same old church?

2008-11-13T21:19:00.004+08:00

IF your favourite music is gone from the usual worship service;
No more drums,
no more electric guitars,
no more cool singers/worship leaders,
no more contemporary Christian songs,
without even the oh-so-boring hymns,
or choir,
or piano or organ
or even at the minimum. A simple nylon-string guitar.
Just plain human voices.

Will you still go to church?

IF your favourite speakers/pastors leave;
No more cool sermons,
no more funny jokes,
no more interesting videos or any sorts to capture your attention,
only a boring pastor who reads from the Bible,
and you see the same person every week.

Will you still go to church?

IF your church is threatened to be demolished in a day;
No more 1,000 seating Chapel,
no more air-conditioned classrooms,
no more playground,
no more basketball court,
no more jamming music rooms,
no more nice, big toilets,
no more facilities,
no nothing.
Only a piece of barren land,
or maybe, someone's nice enough to rent you a small shophouse for you to hold your services in, when you're sourcing all around to get money to rebuild the church.

Will you still go to church?

Will you still go to the same old church,
be the one who is faithful to his/her roots;
or will you go church hopping,
go around and attend other churches. Mega churches which can offer what your same old church can't?

Then when the mega churches suffer the same fate, you run away, and go to some other church?

...

The people in Balai had really taught me, a lot.
To those who think of leaving for the greater, reconsider.
To those who are enjoying the greater, rethink. Start wondering whether you're becoming a Christian, because of the music, or the sermons, or the clubhouse-like facilities, or the fun, or the socialising, or is it because that you really, believe in Him and want to know Him better.

After all, as the Wise says, "get your priorities right".

God bless people. Congrats to those who got their O's done and over with, I completed mine exactly a year ago. :D

Just as you thought Revival 3.0 is needed...

2008-11-12T22:39:00.006+08:00

Haha, I've lost my momentum to blog again :/

No, gain back the push to blog, I shall! (Who does that sound like? Is it Yoda or something? I forgot -.-)

Anyway. The past Sunday was a very special day, it's the birthday of two very important persons in my life: my dad and Wife. Go click on the word 'Wife' to find out more about her.

So to celebrate such a joyous occasion my family and I went to some 阿一海鮮 and have some 6-person 10-course feast (even though we only have 5, because my Wife didn't go because she can't eat) at a discounted price. It was *WOW* and it made me :D :D for the rest of the day, which is only with 4 hours left then? -.-

Yes, through the year my Wife has accompanied me through many things here and there. The many times I serve for Sunday service, the sweat, the joy, the fun, the seasons in the sun (sorry I can't help it!)... Even though it's not the best Wife around, many mocked and made fun of her skin colour, including the BLACKBLACK who wants her lime green Husband HAHAHHAAH. But hey. For such a smal amount of 聘金, can't expect much right!

...

Class chalet was a blast. Totally!

Haha I'm serious. How often do you get to...

Play some Bridge and Charades;
Play ball and laugh out loud;
Cycle around Pasir Ris Park as a group and talk rubbish;
BBQ, eat and drink like a happy boy;
Celebrate birthdays and end up high-ing on a guitar and singing like mad dogs;
Play retard games with lots of water bombs as forfeit;
Night cycle to Downtown East;
Roam in Downtown East when every shop's closed;
Night race back to chalet;
Continue playing card games like Bluff and crack up like no one's business;
Play Indian Poker and do crazy and stupid forfeits;
Play BLIND MICE with 12 other people in a room, at 3am;
Play 'Muderer' with twitching mouths to kill people;
Stone, look at people playing Whacko;
Sleep for 3 hours;
.
.
.
(It's kinda boring in the morning haha)

In just, 24 hours?!
(Haha yes, I set out at 1.30PM from home on the 10th and reached home at 1.45PM on the 11th)

Just realised it's really a very different chalet compared to my 4-8 chalet last year, although both are full of joy, laughter, peace and hope. :D yipeeeeee.

Haha, the people really do make a difference though.

...

Anyway.

晚安地球人 + 疯狂世界(Live) - 五月天

Haha, nothing to do with Christianity this time round, just find this song really nice. Combination of two very different Mayday songs, but the link was so smooth and the lyrics really made sense together and got through me. About the lack of humanity and craziness of the world, so much to an extent people really hate it and want to get out of it.

Read Mayday's 《下課後, 怪獸家點名!》, kudos to Daniel Cher who lent me his ezlink card to borrow that book from Esplanade. Mine was banned from borrowing a book till I pay off my fines which accumulate up to $21 because Dad displaced my library book (it was 'The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time' by the way) into some random shelf last year and I found it recently! Heh.

So back to the book. There was this part where one of the Mayday members (Ah Shin if I didn't remember wrongly) said that there were conservative Christian nuns commenting that the lyrics of 《瘋狂世界》 would drive people towards suicidal tendency. Haha apparently it's something funny but hmm. Sort of reminded me of the issue with selecting music to listen again.

Anyway... To me, the song is more about people wasting time doing stupid things on Earth and how tired people get of the worldly pursuits and dealing with emotions and just want to put a stop to it. It may be written from a point of view of people with suicidal tendency, but the song does not encourage people to suicide.

But oh well, whether it is really about encouraging suicide, search for the lyrics, decide yourself. Haha.

Enough of crapping here. Need sleep badly! Need to recover fast from the sore throat and cough and flu I've caught since Chalet, so that I can be alive, kickin' and singin' again yo!

Shall talk more about life tomorrow. And reply the endless number of tags which I never replied. Alright, God bless everyone!

You want, but they need. 這是原則上的問題.

As I'm typing this...

2008-11-05T08:47:00.001+08:00

I am proud to announce...

That...

I've just printed my AI-AN-AR in VJC's L28!

Yay.

这一切，都要结束。

都要结束。

Not quite. Yet.

2008-11-05T04:53:00.004+08:00

Oh yes, look at the time I'm posting, right now! 4:54AM. GREAT.

As the saying from The Wise goes, "great people wake up early to do great things"
(Don't try Googling for it, I've just quoted from The Wise a few seconds ago.)
So, here I'm! Trying to do something great. A change, that we can believe in. So, yes! I'm doing I&R on my Da Jie's laptop now. (She's so going to kill me if she reads this)

Two reasons for the small print words.
1) My mum WAS sleeping in the living room and I couldn't use the desktop there, even though my I&R document is inside. Take note of the word, 'was'. (Haha this is getting kind of irritating yknow...) Why? Because err. She woke up, saw me using laptop on bed, asked me why wake up so early, went into master bedroom to sleep.

2) I'm checking Microsoft Word on this laptop.

Yes, wondered why I chose to do my I&R at such an auspicious time? Because I was busily repairing the stupid Microsoft Office on this laptop. Something cropped quite few weeks ago and Office couldn't be installed, uninstalled, repaired, opened, ...

Ya the situation was er kinda bad. Imagine, a trainee teacher who has to hand in assignment whole day. Imagine, her life without Microsoft Word. Isn't it such a SAD THING?

So Geek Lam came to rescue and TADAH!

Yes, finally it worked. But you've no idea how tiring it is to repair Office until you see, this: http://support.microsoft.com/kb/928218

Just look at the number of registry keys I've to backup and delete. (And why do we have to back them up anyway? Not like they are made of gold bars or something :/)

OHYA. The sentence you see in the screenshot is my first sentence of I&R. Not the only though, I've roughly outlined my I&R... on my OP Entry Proof?!

I'm not lying! Taken with the Acer Crystal Eye Webcam on this lappy instantly. Although it's named Crystal Eye it has kinda very chui specs - 640x480p and you can't really see the words on my Entry Proof, heh.

Alright time to get serious with work! ~~In case someone comes in and find me doing this.~~ Till the next time people, God bless!

It was done.

2008-11-04T19:48:00.014+08:00

Yes. It was done.
Take note of the word, 'was'. Why? (Yes 08S64 people especially my PW mates, stop rolling your eyes!)
Because... Still got I&R la :/ (And it's not because the Biology Appreciation Club closed down not long after I became its president... HAHA)

Anyway today's OP, can't say that we did our very best but well, things always happen when you're nervous. What's most important is that we did what we could then and hand everything to Him for the rest. I'm glad to say that I did it. No matter how frequent I referred to my cue cards, no matter how off-point I might be during Q&A, it doesn't matter anymore because I know He'll take care of the rest.

Well, that's not self-consoling, that's having faith, heh.

One day before our OP...

We arranged to meet at Orchard Road Shaw House before going Min Yang's house @ Ardmore Park.

We're supposed to meet at 12pm but... Look at the time!

Yes, my phone batt died, so... I memorised my group members' numbers! Clever boy :D But...

WHAT?! The phone booths only have phonecard-reading public phones. Like, no coin accepted?

So I went around to take more photos. (From the phone booth)

Random photos. (Lido Cineplex entrance)

Really random photos. (Escalator down to B1, outside entrance)

Like seriously! I had nothing better to do than meddling with my camera and its manual focus function. So it can "focus on the near and blur the far", whatever you call it.

But it did very badly in trying to capture the very very faraway Borders sign! :( Okay fine, it's not that far away, just a traffic light away.

The Raymond Well clock, with two Angmohs walking by.

The ERP gantry tells me that it's 12.20PM and I've to pay $0.50 to get pass it :(

Okay then Chin Cher AHGONG appeared and said something like "Eh you've been walking and going round and round for the past few don't know how many times then keep making me walking round and round to find you..."

Then my camera battery died. Yay. :/

Okay off I go to do retarded I&R! God bless people :D

2008-10-31T23:33:00.003+08:00

沉默.
很難熬.

Revival v2.0

2008-10-30T22:02:00.006+08:00

Okay, time for some revival. Heh.

Before I get back to my OP preparation (oh well well well, did I even open the "OP Script - Yi Yong.docx" file anyway), it's time to clear some cobwebs here for my readers! Yay *acts excited*

October's almost gone, so many things happened, for example Central's no longer Central, it's now okto and Vasatham now. And I think the Indians around Singapore should be quite happy because they can watch Tamil shows all around the day. Okay this is kinda random :/

Okay, I've opened my "OP Script - Yi Yong.docx" file.

September was quite an interesting month for me. Okay not really actually. Can't really remember much other than

1) SOME person got chickenpox,
2) We had promos,
3) I got a new PC.

TADAH! Hail the new 1680x1050 pixel screen. It took me quite some time to get used to the 22-inch Acer monitor because things have never been so big before. (and everything on screen seems so small compared to it) But it gets very shiok once i get used to it because...

I can read documents 2 pages at one go at 98% zoom level!

Alright, I just realised that my OP Script's in Compatability Mode. So it's should be .doc and not .docx -.- Oh well well.

So. After Promos, there's stupid WR. WR really wastes our time. And money too, not the fact that time is money, not the printing the 77 page report, one Black and White and one colour part, nope. but the part when you spend lots and lots of money on food, snacks, drinks, whatever, to keep yourself awake and sane to continue vet through your longlong WR Draft 3. :/

but through WR it showed me some things. that my 二姐 is actually very nice. she went back to her school (NTU Arts Design Media which lets you use their laser printer like free and no tomorrow) specially to help me print our WR the day before our submission! just too bad that Wireless@SG wasn't working well on Wenyi brother's laptop, I pissed her (my 二姐, not Wenyi la duh) off because I was late to email her for an hour. But nevertheless she kinda got bought over by a pack of pitted prunes, haha! Which explains why WR drains money too. Okay so once again, thank you and sorry my sister!

And finally we submitted stupid WR. Then? OP. :\

But actually I really thank Him for everything regarding PW up till now. Like my very kind and interesting and nice and fun PW group members who make PW sessions much more tolerable and fun. (at least they won't get angry when you deesiao them, haha!)

Like the topic we've chosen, something that can keep our interest.

Like how we faced problems such as unable to substantiate our ideas and how we find ways in the end.

Like how we realised that everything we did for OP wasn't okay recently and how we managed to change our scripts and how we got our enlightment from the HOD of PW.

Like how I managed to think of the plot for the OP video within a night, and film and edit and produce it in another day and night. Using a software which I've never used in my life (Sony Vegas).

I've learnt that really, if you hand everything to Him, He will take care of it. And when you think that things are impossible, they ARE possible. Take completing that OP video within a night. People came up to me and told me, "are you sure you can finish doing the video? Editing video is not an easy job you know." Yes I know, I certainly know, especially when I've to end up using something that I've never used before since Windows Movie Maker's horribly lousy (come ask me how lousy it's) and I couldn't get a Mac with iMovie HD 6 (since my sister has to use hers). Oh well. I even wanted to give it up when I realise that WMM couldn't get my job done.

But He has a way. He gave me the will I never expected myself to have. Like, me sleeping an hour and half, staying up just for the video?

So even when our OP presentation wasn't good as commented by HOD of PW later on that day, even when I was dazed and drowsy and fidgety throughout my speech, even when our slides were criticised and we had to redo everything, including our speech. At least, the video turned out fine and relevant (without subtitles though) and it made everyone in the room laughed for the whole five minutes. And i thank Him because he let me through that.

Yes, bragging you may call. But not really so, there's nothing to brag about. I didn't post the video on my blog and start telling everyone how I did it within a day and whooo, it's fabulous. (I tried posting it on Youtube though, but heh, my PW group members were totally against it because they think they were unglam :( ) But rather, something else which really made me want to talk about this - God's blessings.

Like what the song that we played during 禱告會, 《計算主的恩典》. We're very blessed, all of us. It's just a matter of perspectives. Know how to count your blessings, and you'll realise how beautiful the world is. *NO LINK?*

Okay seems like I've moved on from this to that to everything. Never mind if you don't want to read this whole chunk of words, doesn't matter, I'm still a happy boy :D.

And I'm happy because. (: :) XD :D :P ^^

Er, okay? REVIVAL. Yay :D

it's time to say goodbye?

2008-10-20T23:09:00.002+08:00

To my Led Zeppelin songs? Hmmm...

That's something which is really bothering me since yesterday. Something in Disciple lesson with CYLS which set me thinking deep.

So CYLS was talking about the numbers in Revelation: 1, 2, 3, 5, 6, 7, 12, 13, 24, 666, 144000... Then she said something about not succumbing to temptations, not even allowing yourself to have a chance of it. So she went on talking about metal, rock, something about 80% of rock songs being Satanic, that the evil messages will get to your subconscious mind, backmasking, New Age music, Zen, meditation, yoga, pilate...

Okay, and I was badly confused, especially when I like Led Zeppelin songs. Hmmm... Just as much that I don't want the songs to take control over me (which obviously didn't happen) if they really have evil intentions, I believe in the fact that no one in the right mind will listen to 'Stairway to Heaven' backwards.

I don't really have a clear idea of what Robert Plant is singing in their songs anyway, since I listen out more for their instrumental stuffs. But of course I don't deny the fact that it may influence people subconsciously, but oh well...

But strictly saying, there are always Christian rock songs too. For example, we hear and watch Planetshakers jamming hard on their Gibson and Fender electric guitar at some point in time in Expo this year. So, how are we, as Christians, actually take a stand regarding rock music?

Maybe something taking KI can answer that?

Haha alright. Till the next time people? :D

and it really makes me wonder

2008-10-15T22:20:00.002+08:00

whether there will be any difference in your life if you remove

6 months
5 ...
4-letter messages
3-minute call
2 lines
1 name

?

i doubt so.

but i really don't want
and i don't want what i did to be futile, really.

i'm sorry for being so indecipherable today.
it must be the WR. must be.

Black Dog

2008-09-11T00:13:00.002+08:00

Heyhey Mama!
Said the way you move!
Gonna make you sweat!
Gonna make you groove! ~

-.-

完全交托, 因为他已掌权.
因为他的意念, 高过我们的意念.
他的旨意, 我们侧不透, 分析不了.
不是两粒质子的撞击所能够解释的.

I'll linger on...

2008-09-05T23:15:00.003+08:00

I figured something. I realise that I seriously CANNOT have a laptop/computer in my bedroom!

I'm sorry Da Jie :P

And I'm just so glad now, that my new Acer computer's arriving only on 9th September, when the holiday ends. Imagine the time spent on the new toy which can be used to do more productive revision and studying!

And... Still, no Balai post!

Come Away With Me

2008-09-04T14:04:00.003+08:00

Come away with Me, My love, My dove,
Come away with Me, My beautiful one.

For the rain is over and winter is gone.
Flowers bloom, the season of singing has come.

My beautiful one, the time of singing has come.

Let Me wipe away your tears, remove all your fears.
Let Me hear your voice calling me.

Come away with Me,
For the rain is over and winter is gone.
Flowers bloom, the season of singing has come.

My beautiful one, the time of singing has come.
My beautiful one, My love.

Come away with Me.

赞美之泉《Come Away With Me》

Still... no Balai post

2008-08-24T22:44:00.006+08:00

Chun Ai's fault :P

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Yes, supposed to do EoM now, after getting my Da Jie (who's ironically an English teacher, judging from MY English standards) to check my translation of the 天涯人我行 Zaobao article. It was a disaster in the end, resulting in me discovering silly and retarded errors such as...

"'After eating the bugs, we couldn't have our dinner.' Chorused everybody, frowning."

Must be some aftermath of waking up at 2am to do such language-related work. My mind is seriously not programmed to do such things efficiently. Give me some science/math-related work, I'll complete within a short-time (probably). Give me an essay question to write, I'll take ages going around to search for the so-called inspiration which never come and my linguistic abilities will just hinder my speed and flow of writing.

Seriously, after letting Da Jie edit my work and mum correcting some Chinese terms, I've sort of lost all my confidence with my linguistic abilities. Being in the GP remedial class doesn't really console me, although it's kind of fun to stay for another 70 minutes to have Chang Hong and the others entertain me, haha. It really amazes me how God has assisted me from time to time in Secondary school, helping me get A2 for English despite my really chui standards... hmm. Really wonder whether I'll grow older to be like my dad, who is somewhat hindered by his ability to express in words, always getting corrected or suanned by my mum.

Maybe I should just stop brooding over it and let Him take the lead.

I must say that I'm really one who's very sensitive to people's action and will get very affected by some things. I'm usually skeptical about things, thinking that there's something with this, with that... I don't know, maybe I just strongly believe in the notion that 'Body language tells it all'. Kinda bad at times, especially when I'm very affected by comments from people around me, sometimes even up to the extent that I couldn't really accept what was said about it.

Some kind of self-confession, yeah? That's something I've learnt recently. Maybe when you take a very objective view of yourself you'll see what's really wrong with you and you just have to change it.

Hmm, shared this with my Da Jie when she abducted me to AMK Central's Sumo House to treat a meal, oh yes, thankyou!

Regarding my post as 組長 in TQ, I can say that I've absolutely no idea whether I'm really the right person to be chosen to do the job. Look at the other 3 (YJ, Ting, ~~blackblack~~ WHITEWHITE!) - all really caring and loving people, I must say. But me? Everyone in TQ probably sees me as a retard who does nothing whole day but "study" (yeah right) and play guitar. Being randomly selected to take care of the welfare of the TQ hmm, really takes a double blow on me? 雙重打擊!

OHYA did I tell you? Up till now, even my family members still do question the fact that I'm chosen to be a leader, to care for TQ, and one in charge of welfare, when I don't seem to care, don't seem to be compassionate, don't even help out with chores, don't even this, don't even that. Oh wells...

That issue has been brooding me for ages. However Da Jie tells me, "Hmm yes you should really just rely on His and not your own abilities. You should not let what others think of you limit His works for His Kingdom through you. And yes, you may be oversensitive and thinking too much anyway."

I'm once again reassured that whatever is not impossible in our eyes, God will make a way, when we believe and entrust everything to Him. I don't know whether any 門徒班 students remember a sharing by Jieshi, but she said something like this...

"I used to be one who is sensitive to others' views and opinions. But after Disciple I've come to realise that pleasing others and changing others' opinions about you isn't the most important issue, but to glorify God in your actions, ... (can't remember, she said a whole lot there)"

I guess I should learn from her too. Slowly, bit by bit, I shall change this very very bad habit of mine.

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On a happier note, caught scenes of Olympics Closing Ceremony just now. I was so excited when they included a performance of Led Zeppelin classic "Whole Lotta Love" in the London 2012 part! But just too bad, Robert Plant wasn't the one singing, but good enough, at least the old but still active and sweating Jimmy Page was happily playing the solo on his Gibson Les Paul. But still, I see no link of that song with the theme on Olympics although it has everything got to do with London since Led Zeppelin is the legendary British rock band back in the late 1960s to 1970s.

Alright yes, shall stop procrastinating and complete my EoM. God bless!

Still no Balai post

2008-08-19T20:30:00.001+08:00

Quote: I did something which I’ve never done before – complete a 13m essay in five minutes. Let’s see what kind of marks I will get.

So, we've gotten back our Market Structure Tutorial Essay Q3 today and I got 2 marks for it! I was very happy because Chang Hong who wrote prolly 7-8x my length with 7-8x my effort didn't get 7-8x my marks. Come to think about it, it's impossible to do so anyway -.-

Anyway, yes, I'm procrastinating here, supposed to do PW or study Econs but I'm posting here! Till the next time, God bless :)

P.S. Thomas, how insightful and intellectual huh wiseman? :D

Ya-Ho-Hua Chiu Hok Mua Mua

2008-08-18T23:18:00.002+08:00

Balai is so going to be missed by the 8 of us! (Or rather 7, since Defa UNCLE goes there on a regular basis. Or maybe 5, since Jiaqi DS and Kunfeng went there once before.)

It is probably another trip "fruitful beyond description, great beyond words to be described", following New York. But this time round, I promise, I will try my best to do a recount of it since it's very short, only 1 day! BUT that can only be after I successfully kapok the photos from Chun Ai la wahahahahahaha! (And yes, I may consider revealing your angel's identity after that. Repeat, it's CONSIDER.)

Anyway, I'm not supposed to be here. Promised SoM to concentrate and study for Chem Lecture Test tomorrow even though I'm currently still suffering from slight Balai Withdrawal Symptoms*, and don't ask me why but I miss the kids down there! Ati(Red)'s voice is already ringing right inside my head, haha.

But at least, judging from Moyi's SMS, ("let's go balai again!") I don't think I'm the only one, seriously!

Back to the part where I'm not supposed to be here. I'm supposed to be switching on my computer to check for Mr. Yong's reply regarding PW via email and Enrichment Exercises answers, but yeah, to entertain Ingmar's tag regarding posting about my misadventures in Balai, just logged in lo. Eh by the way Ingmar, since when did I tell you Balai was a misadventure! Must be some post-PW-till-5am syndrome, weird -.-

So yes anyway, read something very interesting on Thomas' blog.

"The true purpose of education... well I don't know what it is. But I am d*mn f***ing sure it is not to get an A for your exams."censorship, oops.

Ya, that kinda reminded me that although our main priority as a student is to ace in exams but that should not be our driving purpose to go to school, but getting A's for exam does not put any real value, monetary or not, on your personal worth. So, don't get stressed when exams are nearing, because you'll get what you learn, because you reap what you sow, because even if you don't get A at the end of the day it does not mean anything and does not put any value on you.

So, that sort of explains why I'm here too. XD

Anyway, try making some sense out of the title. TQ and especially Balai people are way too familiar with this :)

*NOTE: Balai Withdrawal Symptom is a medical term used on people who had just returned from their first short missionary trip to Balai. Includes having kids' singing voices ringing in heads, a sudden improvement in Hokkien, missing the Bakuteh near the jetty, having tons of incomplete homework, etc. The list is inexhaustible and is not really contagious.
Tomorrow is Tuesday :)

15th Day of the 8th Month

2008-08-15T00:09:00.001+08:00

And yet this is not Mid-Autumn Festival -.-

Okay this is totally random. It's 12:07 AM now and I'm shagged from settling PW.

Happy Mid-… August Day?

Right.

Till the next time! God bless people :D

You're my strength, you're my strength.

:P

2008-08-07T10:36:00.002+08:00

I'm supposed to be at Econs lecture now. but I'm at L28A Com Lab waiting for some girl to finish printing her documents before i can print my Connect Sg consent form, Balai trip consent form, and my Letter thingy for PW.

Haha.

We sing, we dance, but since when do we steal things?

2008-08-03T21:25:00.007+08:00

High on home-cooked Bolognese with lots of tomato!

Really tired recently, running out of energy to do things, especially school-related work. However I was really glad that College Day is finally over and we’re having a small break of two weeks from Band, time for us to catch up with a little work and perhaps some sleep! :D Haha, and I really have to apologise for not posting much nowadays, really don’t have the mood or time because I’m not exactly in the thinking mood most of the time!

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So anyway, kinda busy recently doing Connect Singapore stuffs. Yes, as many of the secondary school students in church know, (and complain about), Connect Singapore is a ~~very sian and leceh~~ MEANINGFUL event where approximately 30,000 people from some 30 to 40 schools will hold hands and say the national pledge and connect to form a shape in the heartland of Singapore, along YCK-AMK-Bishan-Toa Payoh-Thomson-Marymount area. Get the idea yea?

So I’m some random volunteer along with 100+++ other VJC students who have ~~either a lack of CIP hours or nothing better to do~~ PASSION for the mission to CONNECT Singapore youths, who is in charge of a small sector of the route to motivate the students (yes, I’m a Chief Motivator) and think of some activities for them to do while waiting for the actual hold-hand timing. Seriously, I don’t know how on Earth we’re going to engage our students and get them on high and passionate for the country on the day itself but I don’t think that’s of my concern for now anyway. :P

The students in my block (namely Block 5-2 with Lydia, or Luong from ACJC as Block IC) are from Bedok Town Secondary School (yes, buhDOK!) and I guess they are really a bunch of very very very rowdy but friendly people. Something quite unexpected for me: the school is probably 80% Malays and it’s kind of a culture shock to me because I’ve been in Chinese schools for 7 years (Nan Chiau 3 Cath High 4) and my first three years in Mayflower went by with a ratio of ethnic races comparable to that of Singapore’s. The Sports Leader EXCO along with their teacher-in-charge Mr. Yap were all very nice and funny people, as seen when we went to recce along our route at the Bishan Park Connector last Sunday.

Yea, busy because I had to spend 4 of 7 days of the week doing Connect Singapore stuffs - Sunday for recceing along our route and Bishan Stadium; Wednesday for going there again to take the photos that Lydia forgot to take; Thursday for going down to Bedok Town Sec to interact with and brief the Sports Leaders; Saturday for another training session in school. Time-consuming, yes, but fun since this is experience one of its kind, especially when I’m not working with anyone I know beforehand. Although it’s kind of irritating when my other 4 VJC counterparts in the block MIA all the way other than on Thursday, but, oh wells, haha! -.-

Some photos I went to take last Wednesday.

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Bible study is really fruitful for me and set me thinking. After leading the Bible study for the previous month, it’s back to the 導師s again, yay! :D So anyway, topic was on being led by an unseen hand, having a “God-intoxicated” heart. There was this question in the Chapter in our Bible study material which stood out from the rest for me.

“Is it possible to have an unceasing communion with Him?”

The author mentioned that there was this person who decided to “dedicate the rest of his life as an experiment in search for the answer for this question”. Don’t know how he did it, but he managed “to pray a simple prayer to Him every two to three minutes, even as he is consciously doing something else”. Some great multitasking this guy have, so anyway, this is the very short prayer he did.

“Am I acting in Your will, Lord?”

I couldn’t help but ponder over that. Many people view Christians as big-time hypocrites, preaching about things which they never do in their daily lives, going church for socializing purposes, acting no different from non-Christians. But I really hope to make a difference. At least, even if I so-called cannot multitask efficiently, constantly reminding myself to act in His will, at least I can remember WWJD when circumstances come. At least, I can set myself apart from the mainstream and stop having prejudice against people like certain people do. I guess, radical discipleship requires effort yea?

Alright, I guess this is really random and you guys are not interested in that.

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Anyway just a random note, the previous few parts of this post were typed yesterday, 03082008! And today is a very exciting day: I did Chem Phy Math GP and Econs essay, during Math Lect. I did something which I’ve never done before – complete a 13m essay in five minutes. Let’s see what kind of marks I will get. GP remedial was extremely exciting, I didn’t fall asleep at all. And I reached home at ~6pm. And there were many bees flying around my HDB block because some random people were burning some beehive somewhere and they started swarming here and there. I ate chicken rice for break, KFC for lunch and scrambled egg with onion with fish with veg with rice for dinner today. I collected a lot of money for class fund (thanks for cooperating 64!) and I’m really happy :)

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I’m going Balai next next Saturday to Sunday for Balai Overseas Ministry! 16th to 17th in fact. Coolios? Yea :)

AMKCMC has always been engaged in Balai Overseas Ministry, helping out there regularly every year. However, this is the first time they are asking us TQ members (or rather, comm members this time round) so hence the five of us (YJ, Moyi, Qinyi, Chun Ai, yours truly) are representing the TQ comm. or rather the whole TQ to this very short trip this year!

As for what we’re gonna do there, it’s more or less decided: just helping out in a church down there by helping in the Children Ministry there! Something like SLV you can imagine, but of course this is for a deeper purpose. One of the stuffs I’m in charge of, is to teach them English (ironically, when I got an S for GP before mod) using simple Christian songs, along with Chun Ai. Oh yay this is going to be interesting and fun :D We’re also going to put up some Bible story skit for them. Story has been decided, refer to the Bible, Matthew 8:23 if you’re interested!

Alright I think I’m kind of very excited! Although YJ is not so because of some three-letter creature whom I just saw poo-pooing just now as I walked home! -.- Okay, I think I’m being really random here…

So. I. Shall. Stop. Writing. Here. And. Say. Goodbye. God bless people, till the next time! :D

To my dear Guest of Honour.

2008-08-03T19:55:00.001+08:00

Everyday is a special day, with you around, silly. :)

102.

2008-07-29T23:42:00.001+08:00

What a random title. Not really actually :) Nope, this is not my 102^nd post on the blog. In fact it's a long way to go before I even reach the 100^th mark! So stop guessing, haha.

"The teams will be given only RM5 received per person per day to settle their food and lodging on the way back to Singapore. With minimal money provided, the teams of six can earn more money for their expenses by attempting to complete assigned tasks. Through such a system, the student leaders will then be equipped with planning and management skills which will in turn be beneficial for their future endeavours."

-An extract of Confirm-A-PW-Group's WR/Proposal/Whatever draft

From that chunk of thingy above, we can infer answers for two questions:-

Why is PW hated among JC people
Why I got an S for GP before moderation and have to attend GP remedial

Period. I'm tired, shall post more tomorrow. BYEBYE AND GOD BLESS PEOPLE! :D

Everyday is a special day, with you around, silly. :)

e-Learning

2008-07-10T10:03:00.002+08:00

is SUPER funny! as i'm typing now, Mr Lau Wee Hua is speaking to me, blasting his voice into my earphones now, hahaha! i tell you, if he zaosia later i seriously will start LOL-ing in front of the com now! -.-

and i just did that, my mum was like "eh siao ah" to me from the room!

alright just a very very short update now, talk to you guys later :D

good times, bad times

2008-07-07T13:07:00.006+08:00

today is 070708, Youth Day.

decided not to go out and get some real good rest after the shaggening (haha, so much for standard English ) weekend, spending time having quality sleep, jogging and typing some nonsense here for you guys to read.

alright, actually i couldn't really go out to meet the other Band people at Sentosa because my mum didn't allow me to. she says i need rest. (i'm putting her words in a very nice way here, HA!) ya, i agree i need rest after going out for 3 almost-full day for mainly school, band and church. can't help but feeling a bit guilty because... :D i'm sorry!

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there's Band Investiture aka Handover on Wednesday. so now, i'm officially given the responsibility from Dafril to take the section well, especially when SYF 09 is coming next year. very stressful you can say, having to "renew the Band's GWH license" and move on, especially after experiencing the setback in Cathigh for SYF 07. i guess i can do nothing much but to once again, hand everything in His hands and let Him lead me through this.

putting that aside, it's pretty saddening to see our seniors go, to adapt to a smaller band, to adapt to the fact that we no longer have Charissa to tune to us/to let us tune to -.- oh yesyes, the seniors! if any of you ever see this i hope you liked our gifts to you, although i must give credits to Oli and Jialing because they were the ones who did more things than me, being a stupid guy who's bad at such stuffs :P

shall upload some photos after i've gotten hold of them. anyway, kudos to Kai Keng and Eric who did a superb job in coming up with the video for J1s to watch, in a day! it's super entertaining and funny and emo and touching at the same time! good job. and good job to Daniel Cher who did the editing for the video to J2s!

OHYA, this is what the J2s have given us:

小鴨夾心棉花糖! as you can see the duck's head was pried open and its flesh are gone -.-

took my first and second sectionals on Thursday and Saturday, went well, thankyou Oli and Jialing for making my job easy by cooperating and giving me full attention 90% of the times!

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church. Bible study came and went, topic's on "Hearing God's Music", to spend quality time with Him everyday to talk and listen. 預查 (beforehand Bible study preparation) took up my Friday night, but it's alright, of course :D my first time leading a Bible study (it was the DS's job before this one) and got too stressed before leading because i couldn't prepare myself mentally, with Band and P&W practice crammed before that. because guess it turned out well, thank God. and thankyou my POMEGRANATE group members for responding well during Bible study, sorta gave me the confidence to continue! and i'm sorry to Jin Chi for converting my stress into your stress before the short P&W before cell! playing 七等豬 after TQ is super fun btw :P

Sunday's Disciple was great. i can say that, once i've done my work properly and thought through before attending the week's lesson, i'll bring a lesson learnt back home to reflect on. New Testament is more interesting IMO? oh yeah. P&W, served as bassist this week, 'twas great, reflected somewhat on the stage on the lyrics of certain songs. Rev Foong's sermon was quite ok, i actually managed to stay concentrated all the way till sermon ends! goes to show how making a deliberate effort to absorb can actually make a difference.

went to J8 Subway to have lunch with the others after everything, while my other bros decided to head to Downtime at Thomson to play DotA. -.-

random shot of Wenxiong at J8, surprisingly the effects were WOW.

headed to Agnes' house to play a few rounds of Mahjong, without money like duh. yes WEIIEN, stop laughing at my pair of eyes and 獨眼龍 and my 2 一萬s because i won a round at least :D seriously long time didn't touch already, in fact i think it's only the third time i'm playing Mahjong! okay i guess i've made all of them burst into laughter at my chui and retarded Mahjong antics, went home after that.

the retarded part comes: i overslept on 156 and ended up at Sengkang Interchange. but when i just woke up i thought i was at Punggol because i thought i was on 43! and i was wondering why the sign says there's 87 there. -.- i think i was seriously too tired! (that's why i'm resting now, got link?)

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it's okay people, don't despair don't despair! look forward, no point dwelling in what's over, there a next time to come, work hard and we'll reap what we sow!

alright i don't know why i'm so random but yeah :D guess i've got to go to "rest my eyes" (sounds familiar? recall Mr David Chen!) and do some work. God bless people!

even though it's only a few days.

smoke on the water, and fire in the sky.

2008-06-26T21:04:00.007+08:00

(10/6/2007, 10pm, photo taken when there's this crazy gust of wind at the end of our class BBQ after SLV)

don't know why, but this photo reminded me this video!

this is a very oldschool and 台 video made by 五月天 Mayday way before they popped out in the music scene in 1999. prolly one of the MVs they made in their Uni days? the song is the very early version of 軋車.

-NO LINK?-

no, look carefully, at 1:33, look at the lyrics also. yesyes i know it's in Hokkien, haha! by the way, to those curious, it's REALLY Mayday members in the MV! haha i was having a good laugh at the sunglasses they used though.

alright enough of crap! the title has no link to the photo which has no link to the video which has no link to what i'm going to talk about. i think i caught WEIEN syndrome already - NO LINK! like ----------> and
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haha.

and no, WEIEN i'm not suanning you, so please don't complain :D

okay! seriously i dunno what i'm talking about i think i'm just pretty bored after exams and actually i'm just preambling a whole lot of rubbish down here so that you guys will fall asleep before finish reading this post HAHAHAHAH alright i seriously think i'm not in the right state of mind to post now because i'm quite mentally unstable and i'm doing nothing much but just rambling on and on and on HAHA i know you all getting impatient already right want to read about something else end up reading these whole lot of junk yea i'm sorry but i just can't stop spouting rubbish here as my footnote suggest RUBBISH SPOUTED BY LAM haha so TOO BAD you guys have to tolerate with all these nonsense that i'm typing now okay i think i'm getting bored typing one whole of chunk of meaningless words so let's proceed on to our post alright! :)

ok that's all for today (!) God bless everyone! :D

corpses lying around

2008-06-26T19:38:00.002+08:00

after Midyears, :P

Physics, die.
GP, write till hand pain.
Econs, surprisingly better than Physics!
Math, 8 marks of conics?!
Chem, 20 minutes on redox -.-

hoping for a AACD... D?
prolly getting CCDE... E?
quite good already i guess :P
hahaha. and so that pretty much sums it up all.

yay, went to watch the movie "Wanted" (not 1/3 but Wanted, haha not funny) at The Cathay with class today, some form of relaxation for us after the very discouraging Midyears, heh. anyway poor Ci Yi had to stay in school because he has Computing Studies exams in the afternoon and he's the only one sitting for it in class!

ok anyway "Wanted" is rated NC16 because of violence ~~and not sex scenes~~ and the excessive profanities and vulgarities in the show, like you'll hear a "F---" every 2-3 sentence they say! but that aside, it's pretty nice although the plot's pretty confusing at some point of the show and there are many twists to the storyline at the end. haha maybe my puny little brain cannot adapt fast to such big changes.

it's really a relief that Midyears is over. realised that after a total cessation of major exams since O's, i'm no longer mentally alert and in the studying mood even when they come. no longer "fit for combat", you can say. even my writing speed has gone all the way down since O's Social Studies (2190/1) on 5/11/2007, that was especially evident during hmm, Econs? grr. was so shagged (it means tired and nothing more than that) after 6 hours of writing for GP and Econs on Tuesday that i just drop and fall into a temporary state of coma (aiyah, simply means sleep la) when after bathing and eating dinner at home. i guess, i just have to start gaining momentum back.

and i really thank Him for bringing me through the exams, even though Physics was totally like crap. well i've no one and nothing to blame but myself as i didn't revise much of Physics beforehand and did more Chem and Econs even though i knew serving for 中國事工 as bassist on Sunday wouldn't allow me to have much time to study for it.

but i guess dwelling in it doesn't help much, so i chose to be positive and tried my best for the next papers. oh well well, don't know if it's something worrying or not, but i wasn't a bit troubled by the papers even though everyone's like saying they lost 40+ marks for Math and they anyhow whack Econs, blablabla... i'm glad that He gave me peace at heart, peace in mind, in fact it was so peaceful i simply slept early the night before Math and Chem papers and didn't study through in the end -.- haha. and i'm glad my relationship with Him wasn't that affected, at least i did my QTs in the morning. (which caused me to miss the usual 43 this morning)

alright, just realised that was one whole chunk of stuff to for you people to digest. hmmm seriously i wonder, to the non-Christians out there, do you mind if i share my thoughts of such "religious stuffs" here? heh, random.

so here i end my post, with a quote from Min Yang.
"the grades i wanted - ASSSSS. A is Chinese."
LOL. all the best to those sitting for Chinese tomorrow!
God bless.

sometimes, people just need time to accept changes.

CAC Connect!

2008-06-26T19:18:00.002+08:00

"毅勇! 來來我有問題要問你!"
"?? 干嘛?"
"我之前不是告訴你你CONNECT CAMP的小組還沒找到組長然後叫你STANDBY囉? 我真的沒有辦法, 你那組比你老或跟你一樣老的組員不是有POST就是第二天才能到要不就沒有接電話! 所以你可不可以? 如果你第一天BAND之後真的趕不來我就先BRIEF你然後那天就幫你頂一頂! 好不好! 就幫我這個忙!"
"哦... 哦... 我等一下回去好好禱告再回答你... 哈哈..."
"..."
"沒有啦開玩笑啦! OK囉... 你都問到這樣了我還能說甚麼..."

perhaps, i wouldn't have enjoyed and learnt so much lessons from the camp as much as i did, if THAT didn't happen. being a group leader in a group with 9 other people from different churches, (ok fine, 5 are in SKMC -.-) different age groups, different everything... i've to say it wasn't easy at all, especially when i've no experience, when i'm not considered an elder in my group (HAHA Ken!), when i'm not mentally prepared up to the point when i'm sitting at the registration table. i'm glad that He really answered my prayers, and well, we had a great time didn't we! *YES!*

OHYA...

the second photo is specially "dedicated" to Ken because he wasn't there when we were taking our photo with the OHYA emblem! (tsktsk, dunno what on earth he's doing with the poor yellow bear?)

OHYA, OHYA, thankyou for all the time of you guys had spent with me during Connect Camp. great group members makes the leader and the group great, yeah? :D

little disclaimer: i'm sorry to those who have been expecting a super long and narrative recount on the camp, seriously i realise that i'm not one suitable for recounts; i tried to do one on this, i took days and i saved it into draft and gave up, HAHAH! anyway IMO recounts are pretty dumb because i don't think anyone's interested in reading about my daily life like my breakfast and my bowel activities? -.- yeah so moving on...

looking forward to Echo

back, and in black. [1]

2008-06-06T20:49:00.004+08:00

yes i’m back.

shall post a very long one here today, since there's no distractions (:P SOMEone ah!) anyway yes, i know that my avid readers are patiently waiting for me to post something here, so i shall not disappoint them and really type something here. (even though Thomas and Pat actually came and haunt me quite a few days ago, ha!)

RE: Majestia XXIII
actually i've nothing much to say about Majestia now, since it's over pretty long long ago (2 weeks?) and yeah, i've forgotten a large part of what has happened already. (ya right, what an excuse) so, that was my very first and very last concert with the seniors in VJCSB, as i was one of the NNSSN (non-NSSN) people. Majestia was one of the times when i've received a culture shock in VJ, as i come to know that we'll be having a lot of good-luck/good-job gifts-and-cards exchange before/after the concert. yes, i mean, just which boys' school will do such things? i never had any form of gifts exchange in CHSSB after than during POP luh. so people, if you didn't receive any present/didn't receive any cards/received some chui present/received some chui cards i'm really really sorry but i only knew about the culture thing 2 days before concert! -.-

i guess i really have to thank God once again for how He has lead me through the concert. with unexpected problems cropping up here and there DURING the concert, one couldn't help but just feel downright depressed and perform like er, crap. that pretty much happened to me, after the E-flat-key on my flute got stuck halfway playing Machu Picchu, just before the interval. later, the problem got even bigger as i swapped the foot joint of my instrument with Dafril, who was not playing his flute for 2nd half. (being aware of the fact that the 2-bar Star Wars solo i had in the second half has many Ds and E-flats) it got stuck halfway in just as i went up on stage!

but through the hiccups, i've once again seen what God can do, when He sent the many people to realise that i was moody and down during the interval and console me. was also surprisingly calm and composed when i realised the foot joint was stuck, solved the problem (by force though) on stage immediately, managed to tune my flute (an alumni took it and pushed the instrument all the way in) before starting 2nd half. so yeah, some of you may be wondering "oh yes, if God is really blessing you then why does He give you these hiccups in the first place?" yeah, all that i can say is, He uses this chance to remind me of His presence and His blessing and yes, to depend on His strength and not mine.

so yes, although i screwed my 2-bar Star Wars solo towards the end, i'm still looking at it very positively because that solo isn't the only factor contributing to the success of the whole concert. also knowing that the problem could have been worse, i really thank Him for His works.

anyway, here's a photo that Pin Rui has kindly sent me. no idea how he got it (should be from the Photosoc people)

(yes, ignore Jialing's and Charissa's and Dafril's faces, that's me!)

[and yes, anyone of you out there, if you happened to have any photo of me just send it to me! i really need photos of my photos (yeah right) and my portable hard disk crashed!]

so right, i couldn't say that i enjoyed playing in the concert that much, even though it's in Esplanade and everything. the feeling is just not that right this time round, not really feeling very high after the concert. perhaps not playing my personal best was the main reason to that. but yes, cheered up as soon as i received the good-job-nice-concert! SMS and comments from my many friends! like those in CHSSB, YJ, Clone and others. i'm especially sorry to the 08S64 people that i couldn't meet you guys after concert because i got lost and when i found my way i only saw that CHSSB people -.- thanks for slippers anyway! haha!

oh yesyesyes, one last thing. Mr. Chan Poh Meng, if you ever got to see this (as if you will), you must thank me for your Majestia present because I'M the one who chionged to PP that day (ponned Physics tutorial to do so, WOOOPS!) to buy it! ^^

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RE: Church Family Camp

i’ve come back from church family camp, if you didn’t realize. heh, it’s really nice living in a real five-star hotel, having big beds and sofa and even a living room to sleep in. :) even though the lunch and dinner there sucks, i guess all of us had a great time down there yeah? didn’t have chance to fully utilize the facilities though, as most of the time we’d activities and sermons planned by the planning committee and i spent 80% of my free time in the afternoon sleeping in the hotel or accompanying my mum. guaikia right? yeah you bet :D

photos of the very nice hotel room!
i really didn't regret rooming with my mum throughout the family camp. some great bonding time with her ever since dunno when, especially when she went China for holiday before that and i had Majestia as my top priority. yea and more importantly (oops) i had someone to be so efficient in packing my stuffs and helping my wash my clothes with shampoo when there isn't enough to wear. *gasps* thankyou Mum!

a photo of the youths in the legendary 青峰侠 group before we proceed to our "treasure hunt" game! heh, in case you guys wonder why 青峰侠，it's simply because we couldn't think of a better name for the team and the team's green in colour!

anyway, one of the most memorable moments during camp was er, (as Moyi shared with everyone in the closing ceremony of the camp), during the last "festive" dinner before coming back. yes, Ziyu and i were approached by Wen Jiao GS to come up with a performance item during the dinner, as the original programme was cancelled that day and she needed fillers and items to keep everyone occupied. so we went up and performed and sang our "classic", 主的喜樂是我力量 (the joy of the Lord is our strength), him on keyboard me on guitar. (uh duh?)

more and more of our TQ people came up to join us singing as the song goes on, so in the end practically the whole TQ was there and honestly, i could really feel the joy of praising and worshipping him through music. so we continued singing 耶和華祝福滿滿 (Jehovah's blessing is full? haha?), a Hokkien song that TQ had to present some days ago. okay in the end we got really high and started 讚美之泉 (stream of praise), which is another of our classics -.- yes! and it's really touching to see people of different ages (it's a family camp, remember?) coming together to worship Him, getting so "high" and stuffs.

yesyes, not many photos unless i get some from Qixin Uncle who was the "official photographer" for the whole event!

had a long talk with YJ and Chuan on bus 136 home on the previous Sunday. once again we were amazed what God can to make a change in our lives and how he has a perfect plan for everyone. like how we said for many times since last year, if he were not to leave, we would not have changed, and we would not be what we are today. and he would not have seen the change in us and come back. yes this may make totally no sense to people who don't know what's going on, but i guess for us brothers, it's something really important. now we just hope for the last one to come back too, then we're together as a whole once again.

please don't doubt him, like how you've doubted us a year ago.

okay i'm done with this two. next post please! ~

His love is...

2008-05-28T00:30:00.005+08:00

WARMER THAN THE WARMEST SUNSHINE SOFTER THAN A SIGH HIS LOVE IS DEEPEST THAN THE DEEPEST OCEAN WIDER THAN THE SKY HIS LOVE IS BRIGHTER THAN THE BRIGHTEST STAR THAT SHINE EVERY NIGHT ABOVE AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO THAT WILL EVER CHANGE HIS LOVE.

:D

random -.-

just came back from Fairy Point Bungalow 2 (yes SOMEone, it's TWO!) in Aloha Changi for Part I of JTS. couldn't stay any longer as i'm going off to Malaysia for church family camp tomorrow noon. won't be back till 31/5/2008, this Saturday, so don't expect any post (regardless on camp, on Majestia XXIII, on anything else) till then! :D

(yes, this is supposed to be a short post, so don't complain if you guys have nothing much to read!)

okay, goodbye and God bless people!

i'll miss you too.

CHSSB: Aesthetique 2008 – Music Takes Flight

2008-05-18T19:10:00.002+08:00

It was awesome. Near to flawless. Great. Fantastic. Marvelous. Wonderful. Beyond description.

It's weird watching my very own juniors performing a full concert on stage and totally into the music. Not forgetting that all of them have improved so much since my very last concert, Limelight in Esplanade 2007, with them. I'm still very impressed and amazed by how much certain sections have improved. For example the tubas, don't know since when they've become so much stronger compared to last time.

Jun Wei (my beloved junior!) and Daniel (my "favourite" junior!) and the rest of Flute section has really displayed musicality, especially those 2 Sec 4s who moved together with the music at the last piece, Do-Re-Mi. (It's a CHSSB Flutes thing to move together with the music since Yi Zha's era) Hmmm, kind of reminded me how robotic I've become since joining VJCSB. And to be very honest, CHSSB's flute section is much more musical while VJCSB's flutes are more technical and care more about hmmm, getting in tune? I don't know, maybe it's a culture thing. Jun Wei did a superb job in Carnival of Venice solo and it made me as his senior so ashamed of myself for being so chui compared to him :P But anyway, I'm really proud of all of them (Yesyes!) and I'm sure Yun Song is too.

Anyway, I'm finally really convinced that God has His plans for the Band. It's just so blessed. Perhaps most of us, me included, couldn't what's so true about that upon receiving a very shocking Silver for SYF'07, upon putting up a not-very-fantastic Limelight concert in Esplanade, upon changing conductor one week after we (the current J1s) stepped down. However, look at this very first concert since Mr. Tan took over. Isn't it great? So isn't all those things blessings in disguise for the Band?

Things remain the same. The passion in music is the same. Singing school song, shouting Band cheer and singing the ~~stupid~~ CH Gentleman song are the same. The madness in CHSSB people is the same. The brotherhood is still the same.

And The Song Remains The Same.

One Band, One Sound, One Brotherhood.

YES! I’m posting using Microsoft Word 07 now.

2008-05-18T18:18:00.002+08:00

This is coolios man! I didn't realize that there's such a blogging function in Microsoft Office 07, I bet all of you out there didn't realize to. Now I can post here without even logging in to Blogger! Cool right? :D Okay la, kind of pointless but who cares?

Doing some PW research online now. I guess some of you should know already, my confirm-A-group has to change our whole GPP because our CT-cum-Math-cum-PW tutor Miss Cai thinks that my group's idea is hard to comprehend and substantiate as well. To think that she tells us about that very frankly only after we've submitted our first GPP. ARGH. Whatever la, we've to redo everything but it's okay, we've found a new topic for "Journeys" and I hope nothing crops up this time round.

Anyway, our topic is on a documentary/variety show broadcasted on Channel U in September 2001, when Channel U just started not long ago. "天涯任我行", anyone heard of/remembered it? So as stated in some 联合早报 article I found online, it was about this 5 Uni students who went to China for 35 days to complete some tasks, hosting the show at the same time. Cool right? So anyway I thought of this topic as I suddenly remembered this soundtrack in the documentary composed and written by one of those Uni students who went on to become a part-time DJ at Radio 1003 (then called UFM) in year 2002-2003.

永恒的友谊

我没忘记我们说过要有永恒的友谊
唱着歌曲我们曾经分享默契与欢喜
背负行李带走的是不一样的自己
在孤单里知道有你不会孤寂

开始熟悉就像戏剧，结果还是分离
远去这片温暖土地，说不出的思念在眼底

朋友来来去去少了我也没有关系
多了你生活却变得更美丽
世界无穷大要走的路会艰巨
天涯任我行记得你走在一起

朋友来来去去有了你就应该珍惜
珍惜了不代表永远不会失去
就算有一天你把我名字忘记
记得年少时我们分享的一切
不可惜 [ 不可惜 ]
我想这就是永恒的友谊

REVIVAL

2008-05-10T21:47:00.003+08:00

yeah right.

so it was exactly a month since i touched my blog *blows dust away* i'm very glad and grateful that there were one million and one people tagging on the tagboard to keep it alive! (yea right, 1000001 tags) and so, to clear YJ's doubts on whether my blog is really dead, i shall come and revive it! okay, enough preambling, let's go straight ("straight") to the point!

[i'm writing this while SOMEone's at TJ band concert. that means i can concentrate on lengthing this dumb post to entertain you guys, haha.]

for the past month, there're just so many things which happened, good and bad, it's up to you guys to decide :D but yeah, i believe that every path that we take, every decision that we make, God will be there to guide the way, as He is the Lord, He will make a way for us. every single step we take, we take it in faith.

i can say that this is most tiring and straining months of the year for all of us (VJCSB people), with an upcoming Majestia concert, tutorials and lectures to follow up, and for me i've lots to catch up in church, especially with my cell group. seriously at many times, i feel guilty neglecting my cell group members, feel bad not practising hard enough on my flute (STAR WARS! :(( ) , feel really horrible not doing Disciple homework on time, not touching my tutorials at all, ... yeah, it's tiring but i shall press on! for He's there for me :D (SOMEone else too)

speaking of band concert, let me advertise here.

Victoria Junior College SYMPHONIC BAND (VJCSB) : MAJESTIA 2008!
ESPLANADE!
21ST MAY 2008! WED!
7.30PM!
$25 (Stall/Circle 1) $20 (Circle 2) $15 (Circle 3)

yes, don't miss this chance to come support me! :D contact me if you're interested.

and some replies to tags, all the way to one month ago.
[Clone] hi clone! thanks for supporting for VJCSB concert! (ok irrelevant to reply to tag) but anyway i'm not planning to major in law or medicine, period. yea and Exco's application's way over, the shortlisted people are on their 2nd round already :P
[moyi] yesyes, thank you for the beanie. yesyes, worship blog rocks we'll visit and tag more frequently. yesyes, don't laugh at GL already. yesyes, i know i did "well" for ZAI YI CI. yesyes, good job too for that week even thought you couldn't hear yourself!
[thomas] sure, catch up with you next time yeah! hope you're doing well at SP ADP!
[BUS/BUS STOP MATES aka ANNE JIAYUN JIANEE] yesyes, i revived it!
[yanzhu!] hello SISTER! nope i cleared those stinky stuff with this post already :D
[JINGWEN] yes i've thought of where to go already. we're going to Yi Hui's house to study! -.-
[ingmar] nope, mine's not dead, at least i've tags to keep it alive :P
[Hanhao] Sara? he has found his true love in life which is... TADAH! Wilson Koh! :D btw if you ever see this, good job on Friday for CO concert! the erhu horse-gallop song is impressive!
[CARMEN FOONG] eh what supergirl! i was wondering who on earth's that -.- cya tmr!
[jiayun] what crap?! you mean TJ vs VJ? :D

okay that's all for now. will update soon. like tmr? hope so! hahaha alright, God bless!

hello there!

2008-04-13T16:55:00.003+08:00

I promised my source of motivation that I'll be a good boy and do my PEEAI. But hey, NO! I shall take some time off and talk some rubbish here before my dear readers come and haunt me over my absence here! :D

Church has been well, great and fulfilling for me. I've actually seen the love and care in the fellow brothers and sisters-in-Christ, especially on the day that I’m flying to NEW YORK, they actually came down to send me off at Changi Airport when I was just kidding about coming down to T3 Row 10! What’s more, I was really surprised and stunned for words when Wen Jiao GS (幹事 aka Administrator in short) and Chern Yi LS (老師 aka Teacher in short) came to send me off. CYLS even gave me a cap (which Oli loved to wear when she was in NYC) which made me feel very guilty for not doing Disciple homework regularly and earnestly (of course, not ONLY because she gave me a cap, but it’s not what I’m supposed to do anyway) while the brothers and sisters got me a beanie. Seriously, although they were very exaggerating and made it look as if I’m going off for 10 months or even 10 years instead of 10 days, I was very grateful and glad that I was actually not forgotten by them, yeah, ALL of you, while I was in NYC!

弟兄會 2008 was really great job and great effort, special thanks to YJ and Chuan who has coordinated everything well when I was away in NYC! I was really relieved when YJ called me that day when I came back from NYC to update me on the prepping of DXH that the young brothers are doing their jobs and almost everything including gifts and games and food was settled! Actually I was still feeling a bit guilty for not helping out much on DXH day itself other than being guitarist for the P&W and making the mood in DXH a bit high before the games. (YEAH RIGHT!) I didn’t even help out in the games while they’re in Bishan Park! (Ziyu and I were both slacking while prepping P&W in MPH haha) But yea still, good job brothers! I’m proud of all of you.

Anyway as I’ve shared yesterday after Bible study, (yeah, emo sharing according to Moyi) I was pretty uncertain whether the passion and fire in me for serving Him has died down, especially after random encounters like Ting Ting giving me a note writing something about not to miss NY too much and keeping my burning passion and SOM (Source of Motivation, heh) who encouraged me that “you’re playing for Him!”. So yea, turns out that when I kept reminding myself that “I’m doing this for Him” (like how I kept telling myself on my first day of serving, 中國事工 with a bass on stage) I started to gain back the fire in me to play my bestest for Him, like today. :D

So yeah, I’ve made a promise to myself that I’ll not neglect my POMEGRANATE cell group members and my role in Worship Ministry, even though I’m currently super busy trying to catch up with school work! :) It’s just hard to balance between schoolwork and band and church, even harder than in 2007 as I take up more responsibilities here and there. But with God, everything is possible! (Phil 腓4:13)

Putting church matters aside, I’ve more or less decided not to run for EXCO in VJCSB in case you’re wondering. I simply cannot bring myself to bear heavier responsibilities when I know it means sacrificing my currents ones and I won’t be able to do a very good job. Furthermore, I do not want to deprive others (not as if I will actually), who are probably much more capable, a chance of serving for the Band. I’m still praying about it. So yeah, pray for me too!

I’m done with my update! No photos or whatsoever here, till the next time then, God bless! (: (Here’s a retarded smiley! Hehehehehehe SOMEbody ah!)

replies to tags. will ignore tags about flirting! tsktsk.
[weishi] HELLO! :D:D:D:D
[thomas] boing boing? get your CDs from me soon!
[louise] HI LOUSY LOUSIE! *slides imaginary trombone slide*
[Chuan] hey! updated!
[moyi] he still didn't tag after all :P
[JiaLing] HELLO the JiaLing in church! (NOT Tan Jialing!)
[JINGWEN] yeah sure! POMEGRANATE!
[sushuen] sheesh, Hidhir is a toy GIRL! :P
[yanzhu] SISTER! my tagboard! argh!
[Weizhen] yes yes, chocs right! i'll rmb and thanks for your lecture notes!

(: and :)!

人在這裡, 心在紐約.

2008-04-03T16:30:00.002+08:00

i'm here physically in Singapore but my soul is still in New York!

it seems like all the band members are still suffering from New York Withdrawal Symptom, especially in school during lesson time! jetlag, jetlag, more jetlags (even though teachers like Mr Jeffrey Ng and KFChan tell us that "it's only 12 hours!") while having to catch up lots of lectures and tutorials, while trying to steal some sleep here and there, while trying to keep yourself awake with some Nescafe Mocha flavour. (LOL!) life for the year has never been so shagged before! can imagine how it will be like next year during SYF!

alright, as you've guessed, i'm NOT going to give my retarded recount on the NY trip, as it is simply too long, fruitful beyond descriptions, fun beyond words to be narrated. (WAH.) don't expect photos yet, at least for now, because eh, i don't have them with me! (i didn't bring a camera and my photos are all over the place in others' camera) so yeah! to sum up the NY trip, it was

GREAT.

and we got a

GOLD.

in CARNEGIE HALL!

and all would be futile without His presence. :D

i'll be back to church today, once again on a Thursday night 7.30pm for P&W practice. guitarist this time round, waiting to get a whole new experience serving for Him and getting close with His presence. that means having to edit my retarded PI First Draft now though. RAH!

you know what? (just a random note) PI is as retarded as typing your smiley like (: ! (hehehehehehe someone ah!)

alright, i'm suffering from a coffee overdose now. going to practise my guitar before the practice later though. God bless!

TWELVE (12)

2008-03-21T11:50:00.002+08:00

not 12 days, but 12 HOURS to NY!

my luggage is basically done, just have to do a double check later! so i'm here writing stuffs for you to see, organising the music in my phone and yeah! thanks for the well wishes from many people and yeah, NEW YORK HERE WE COME! okayokay i'm getting a lil' too excited here. even my sisters comment that i'm getting restless and hyper about it, lol! but hey isn't it a good thing!

Thomas is getting envious already! especially when he heard that the hotel we're living in is at Times Square! and that we're going to Broadway and watch theatre shows! but of course he won't miss this chance to "make me" help him look out for original cast recordings of Avenue Q and Wicked! okay that was random, i just happened to be chatting to him right now!

okayokay, i'm praying and still praying hard that VJCSB will be at its peak in Carnegie Hall and that everything will be safe and sound. pray hard for us too! :D yeah, till now i'm still thinking of the verse at Philippians 4:13, "I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." ("我靠著那加給我力量的, 凡事都能做." 腓立比書 4:13. guys doesn't that sound familiar eh? ;D) and i firmly believe in it!

alright till here, time to go, cya in 10 days' time people!

"信是完全交托, 深知主已掌權."

ONE (1)

2008-03-20T19:30:00.002+08:00

DAYS TO NEW YORK!

wow wow wow, i'm so overwhelmed with emotions and thoughts that i don't know where to start with. to start, yeah, it's a total miracle that we can put up a great Machu Picchu in 8 weeks time, minusing the J2 CTs and CNY weeks! i can feel the goosebumps that i used to feel in Jericho during 05's SYF when we play Machu Picchu in PT yesterday! and the tension in the Feroce parts that i used to feel in Incantation and Dance in 07's SYF! all these, in only EIGHT weeks! isn't that God's miracle, yeah? :D
adding on, this week's practice was totally fruitful and efficient, we've solved so much articulation and technique problems now we're much better than where we set out from and we're going there like, TOMORROW! can you believe it!

okay just some rambling here. it's really been great playing in VJCSB, i did not regret joining band, especially when i'm given this one more chance to go on an overseas trip with such a zai band (shall not be overconfident though). and imagine! if i've really gone to WMC in Netherlands when i was Sec 2, i won't have the money and my parents won't allow me to go NEW YORK!

so thank You Lord, for all these would not be possible without You.

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alright just a side track, yesterday was pretty dumb, i woke up late at 6.15am and hence i have to take 87 and change to 55 to school. was almost late, Amelia and Jiayun were super kind and waited for me at the traffic light and the whole bunch of us ran to school because we're like almost late? (7.39am haha) and Jiayun fell down while running to school! and the injuries are quite serious la.

so it was indirectly my fault and she ended up with many injuries and it was so jalat that she has to see the doctor. so very sorry Jiayun! although you're not blaming me (i bet deep in your heart you are actually right! haha just kidding) but i still feel pretty guilty la. awww, don't worry about the scars, because there won't be any in the first place, and even if there's no worries! *AHEM* okay la don't make fun of you ______ already. and don't miss us (Amelia and i, because we'll be in NEW YORK!) okay! we'll (or rather, Amelia will) buy stuffs back for you guys (bus and bus-stop kakis)!

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okay so back. NY IN ONE (1) DAY'S TIME! i am 7788 ready regarding luggaging already. (what a way to describe that) and yeah those who asked for souvenoirs like Tay Yun Song, i'll try to buy some I*HEART*NY teeshirt or George Bush toilet roll (as requested from Min Yang) for you guys! don't expect something big though! i'm bringing only USD400 including meals. (i hope that's enough) yeah so tomorrow at 2355 i'll be on a SIA plane having movie marathon and eating great plane meals i hope!

replies to tags:
[yanzhu, chia, oli] yesyes, push trolley right! calling your mothers to push for you right! (niang ah! niang ah!)
[yanzhu] yes that's the photo you took. and yes, NEW YORK!
[ingmar] mr horny = F horn, you cuckoo...
[CLONE!, zhiyin] yes, NEW YORK!
[AMEILA] gosh gosh, time to do something about your chinese, and what you scandaLESS? how can you forget about Eng Hwee! haha!
[Min Yang] goodness, WHAT amazing grace!
[Elizabeth] linking. soon. haha.
[moyi] haha it's possible, not that it's not. :P
[yunhan] thank you! yeah i'll buy for you guys? haha but not Wei Zhen, she'll have Daniao to buy a special present for her. oops.

yeah. NEW YORK IN ONE (1) DAY! cya!

主的喜樂是我力量

2008-03-17T20:50:00.003+08:00

祢的救恩是我盼望
雖然橄欖樹不效力也許葡萄樹不結果
我仍因救我的神歡欣快樂

我要讚美! 無論得時或不得時
我要讚美! 每天從日出到日落
我心堅定於祢每天讚美不停
我要讚美! 跳舞讚美! 我要讚美! 自由讚美!
大聲歡呼: 你是永遠得勝君王!

and so, this became my all-time favourite song, not (only) because of its guitar's strumming, not because of its fast tempo. but for its simple lyrics, which sums up my faith for Him.

NY IN FOUR (4) DAYS!

New York!

2008-03-13T13:29:00.003+08:00

is here in EIGHT (8) days!

i'm starting to get very excited already. but still feeling a bit unprepared leh, running notes and everything :( today had a one-to-one sectional, Dafril is pretty kind to give me (or rather us) one more week to work on the stupid running notes, hahaha! alright i'm trying to call which parts of the pieces i desperately need to work on! the stupid running notes of Machu Picchu at [R] and [V], before [J], at [J], [P], [Q]... the stupid sets of quavers in Entrance of the Gladiators... the stupid Trio in Enzuisgaloppe... argh that's a lot!

putting that aside, i've already starting packing my luggage for New York already. fast and early for a guy isn't it! so according to the sign at the winter clothing department in the OG @ Orchard which we went on Monday, we need these...

so being a poor boy with no cash no money no credit card no visa no whatever... i went around and borrow winter clothings from those who fly often to US. so thanks to Bryan and Jibin Laoshi if you all ever ever see this post! (yeah yeah as if they will haha) so now my clothings are basically, er, settled? yeah, just need to wait for Bryan to pass me the stuffs (beanie, thicks long sleeves) on Sunday. btw Jibin's coat is YELLOW in colour -.- so it looks very dumb and corny if i wear it without a windbreaker outside. haha!

alright, P&W practice later! (not the TQ P&W but the 第二堂 P&W) i'm the bassist for the week! i'm doing some research on Hardwarezone for my new CPU! yeah so till the next time!

another update before i go practise my flute

2008-03-11T20:55:00.005+08:00

some replies to tags.
[Jingwen] cranberry! pomegranate! it's a very nice cheer okay!
[thomas] yeah! great time spent with you and salim! fried mars bars! :D
[AMEILA] yes you're grateful! of course i not bad! tell Charissa to teach you! and yeah! NEW YORK HERE WE COME! HAHA!
[jiayun] you then scandalous please! anyhow!
[chunai] i'm too big for you to swallow already
[ingmar] you want scandal? i can help you create if you want.
[PRINCESS] please, please, royalty?
[xiaowei] i'll kill you first!
[nonplussed] haiz after so many years of friends, i can't believe that you don't believe me of not having another half...
[raycher] funny, chia... please i was acting perfectly like a man showing that retarded bored and embarrassed face like 99% of the times!

band practice is on for the whole week for now. stressed stressed stressed, i certainly don't wish to screw the whole band and flute section up with my retarded running notes, and my fingers refused to cooperate. how? :( and i'm pretty inconsistent nowadays la. like some days i'm super in tune with Charissa (95% because she was tuning to me) and maybe even Jialing (they always clash with each other with me in between), while some days like today i just can't get the correct tuning no matter how hard i try to listen. HOW? bad bad bad. seriously i need to rely more on Him and not my own abilities!

Monday time was pretty, er, well-spent. sectionals and individuals that morning, quite scary i must say, because Dafril reminded us the urgency of practising because New York is like not far away and it's scarier than SYF! and my continuous running notes seriously still cannot make it, so i need more more more more practice on my own! anyway the 1st Flutes (or rather Charissa and Jialing) camwhored during sectionals, they claimed that i need loads of camwhoring practice for New York trip (what a joke, they should take a look at the photos in our class blog and see how great my camwhoring skills are) , so we took a photo and set it as wallpaper on our phones to remind ourselves that NY is nearing and we need to practise!

(Charissa, me, Jialing)

then after that, yadayadablablabla, i happened to have nothing to do before meeting up with Thomas so i followed Rachel Phy Yanzhu Louise Jialing Oli to SHOP AT ORCHARD after lunch at Mos Burger. yeah in the process i saw many evil ("see no evil!"), sat on many escalators, sat on many chairs, toured many shops, wandered and stoned a lot, etc... hahaha so after that i concluded that i'm seriously, still a very normal despite my efforts to act gay or whatever, because i get bored so easily accompanying girls to look at stuffs which i've totally no interest in! Yanzhu says that it's some training for me in prepping me to accompany my girlfriend to shop next time. HAHA WHAT A JOKE! yesyes Rachel Chia, i'm NOT on my way becoming a woman hor okay!

so later i went to meet Thomas and Salim (Jason and Pat pangseh-ed) at Plaza Singapure for a mini meet-up gathering to do some catch-up with Thomas! (Salim no need la, i see him everyday in school) went Pastamania! for dinner, ate Bacon Aglio, burnt a hole in my wallet, burnt another one when we went to eat Fried Mars Bars at B1 of Plaza Sing, burnt another one when we bought the GV tickets for Juno. Juno, i can't say it's extremely funny because the movie was without subtitles and i spent half of the time trying to understand what they're saying! bad bad bad, i've got this feeling that i can't survive next time if my lecturer/boss is an ANGMOH! but never mind la, the same goes to those who need subs to understand a Chinese movie when i don't have to! (i need Chinese/English subs for English shows while i don't need any form of that in Chinese shows)

alright. mum's nagging. till the next time! God bless

looking. back.

2008-03-09T22:05:00.001+08:00

24/1/2006.

i am so tied down with sec3 life, everything is like happening so fast... i got the feeling that yesterday i just stepped into catholic high like that... in an blinking eye... i come to sec3. very soon i will be performing for aesthetique 2006, then i will be in the band exco... then i will take a lot of school exams and common tests until i get real sick of them... then i prepare for syf2007 and at the same time i mug for o levels'... then soon i am going to leave catholic high and graduate, and i am going to back once again... like what i did when i graduated from nan chiau.

time flies. really.

h - not for holidays but hectic days

2008-03-09T20:28:00.002+08:00

bad bad bad, it's going to be very busy this March holidays for lam. the band people should know it. for lam, March holidays mean practice after practice, individuals after individuals, combined after combined, sectionals after sectionals. it's certainly bad when he realises that practising running notes repeatedly over an hour results in aches in his lousy fat laggy spastic fingers. but, hey, he also realises it's worth it when he knows that New York will be in his way soooooooooon!

alright, wassup with that retarded third-person narration -.-

hmmm to recall, 23/7/2005. (that was 3 years ago btw)

= world music contest =
once again, i shall say that i am NOT going to wmc, because...
1) mother is afraid that i get sick there, although i tried to persuade her like mad.
2) mother ask me to pay myself if i want to go. i don't want to waste my money LOL
3) my sisters will get jealous, because when they asked mother if they can go to some school trip overseas like to china, my mother disallowed.
4) there are already 6 flutes going (and daniel and jun wei [sec1s] are going. they going to spoil the sound man). + hak liang, an alumni senior. so 7 flutes. if i go there, i will only make the sound more unbalanced.
5) mother thinks that my studies will get affected. C'MON LA.
6) i think that God has his own means for not letting me go.

see? so many reasons. so stop asking me why i am NOT going to wmc.

hmmm. time really flies. it's amazing to see how that 2 juniors of mine improved so much over this period of time that now they are Flute Grade 8 holders and they thrash their grumpy loser senior here. come to think about it, God has provided me another chance for another overseas trip with Band, this time to the even-more-prestigious Carnegie Hall in NY! and so do i loved my Reason 6. :D

short post here. update more tmr! God bless.

look.

2008-03-09T19:35:00.003+08:00

look right.
look left.
look right again.
and you might have realised,
more and more people are going MIA.

who?
what?
where?
when?
why?

... how?

hoi! hoi! hoi! hoi!

2008-03-07T20:04:00.002+08:00

the title was what AC/DC kept repeating in the beginning of their song, TNT. -.-

anyway today was the very last day of Term 1, yahoooo~
it sorta signifies that it's the end of our slacking days and beginning of our mugging-and-listen-to-lectures-and-do-tutorial days. :(
Daniel made a very great and noble resolution today while we were walking to LT4 for Physics lecture. he said that when Term 2 begins he's going to minimise talking during lectures and pay attention and stop playing his PSP during Physics! it sounds almost impossible for him to minimise talking la, judging from the time he spent talking during lectures, hahahahahahaha! but it inspired or reminds me to start the term afresh, renewed, mentally emotionally physically spiritually! 更新靈命!

today i (supposedly WE) accompanied Xiao Wei on the first bus of 43 to school because she has her SC stuffs (like again?!) so apparently we were the only ones who caught one bus earlier while SOME people chose not to catch the bus in order to 在巴士上渡過浪漫的二人世界! so scandalous please! but THOSE two people in turn accused me of being the one who is scandalous when i'm supposed to be scandal-LESS! haha! okay what am i talking about.

and oh ya. today i just wasted 90 minutes of my life waiting for my collection of passport at ICA, getting bored to death, i was bored to such an extent i went to buy Newpaper to read and brush up my super chui English! stupid me, i should have been patient and go with Daniao and Sister to ICA on Monday.

alright alright, just some short update here, till the next time! God bless!

tired tired tired.

2008-03-05T21:26:00.002+08:00

i can't wait for March holidays to come.
although it means tons and tons and tons of homework.

i can't wait to fly to New York.
although it means that i've to chiong flute now.

i can't wait to go sleep now.
although it means that i risk getting killed by teachers for not doing tutorials!

P&W aftermath

2008-03-03T20:41:00.004+08:00

some replies to tags.
[ingmar] dy/dx, that's Jason's joke!
[yanzhu] SISTER! what kind of cheer is that! and very difficult to dy/dx yiyong yongyi meh! haha!
[jianwei] please please, studentmart sucks big time! haha!
[thomas] answer is below!
[AMEILA] that was a deliberate spelling error btw :P tsktsk! why you, tsk, liddat!
[moyi] YEAH ITS OVER! good job too!

so P&W is over. ^^ (refer to Moyi's tag there <----- and up there)

people with burning questions inside, P&W stands for Praise and Worship, not Project and Work!

alright. honestly trying to prep P&W in 4 days is totally hard work. especially when
1) you have to choose 20 over songs
2) you have to make Powerpoint and type endless list of lyrics (mostly Chinese)
3) you have to settle lots of stuffs
4) you have to plan lots of things to say

of course i am not planning and hosting alone luh. so firstly thanks to Moyi who did a lot more of speaking for P&W then i did! but of course i think i typed more lyrics then her la hahaha so it sorta evens out you see. but still that's like half of the workload if i'm preparing alone! haha yeah so thanks!

secondly i must thank Ziyu and Qinyi (the musicians) for great playing on Saturday! although the beginning of P&W was pretty in a mess (all thanks to the lousy Roland keyboard pedal hahaha) but you guys still did a great job! and thank you Ziyu for not continuing pressing us to come up with the list of songs on Wednesday night! ok that was actually pretty random.

thirdly i must thank Ting Ting and Guan Liang, for reminding me about the many logistic stuffs which i totally forgot and helping me borrow the projector on Saturday respectively! yeah and special thanks to GL who never fail to come up with a sharing when we request him to for P&W!

lastly, thank you God, for all would have been futile, pointless and useless without You.

anyway, i was thinking of writing something here because according to Chern Yi Laoshi , our teacher for Disciple class, we are supposed to reflect on ourselves everyday of this week on what we've sinned or might have sinned about (topic for last week was Sin) and write them down on journals/blogs/waste paper/etc. so here i'm, writing my reflections and thoughts instead of studying for my stupid Econs case study test!

so today i was doing a massive sort of reflection during school time, sadly to say, during Math lecture once again before i doze off for 15min because i caught no ball for the Maclaurin's law the KWOK (ext 135) guy is talking about. i kinda thought that my source of sin usually come from my retarded big mouth which always happen to blurt out something retarded which didn't kena filter off my brain. hmmm. i was kinda thinking more about it when i felt that people are kinda shunning me because hmmm, they think that i'm boastful? full of rubbish? attention-seeking? i don't know actually. and Phyllis told me that i looked like some irritating guy from Chung Cheng who plays the flute too. ("and yaya he goes to church too!" said Phyllis very excitedly when i somehow mentioned that i wear jeans to church on Sundays so wearing long pants for uniform is nothing) ends up that i was pretty dazed and confused (yes yes Led Zeppelin!) and emo when i walked out of school today.

okayokay thats the end of the "reflection on sin" part. thank God, i was saved from emoing further when my bus kaki Xiaowei (aka PS girl because she forever cannot take bus 43 with the rest of her bus 43 kakis due to SC stuffs)who saw me walking out of the school from the treehouse and thus decided to go home with me since she wants to go home! she has actually unknowingly cheered my day by providing me someone to talk to for the whole 1 hour bus trip home, and something to laugh at. (her "unglam" photos everywhere!) thanks Xiaowei!

hmmmm, come to think about it, i'm pretty blessed with good friends in JC life - my bus kakis and bus stop kakis, my class, the VJCSB people like sister! and many more. so why should i be emo? (not that i'm anyway) okay fine fine i'm ranting and ranting, so i shall stop here and go study for ECONS! (crap.)

alright God bless people.

once every 4 years.

2008-02-29T23:23:00.003+08:00

today's 29/2/2008. once every 4 years.
that's why i'm here :D

and this leap year is very special.
because i have to chiong P&W all the way to midnight on the leap year day. special isn't it? ;)

the last of my green berm days

2008-02-28T20:07:00.005+08:00

those days of showing off sexy thighs.
those days of putting on the 7 shiny metal buttons completed with a nametag, a crest and a band collar pin on the uniform. in your sleep.
those days of putting left hand through the pocket of green studentmart berms.
those days of poking your finger out from the lousy studentmart shirt.
those days of getting made fun of for showing off leg hair. (YONGJING!)
those days.

are gone.
officially.
when i put on my cathigh full uniform for the last time today.

people.

2008-02-23T18:26:00.003+08:00

they come, they stay, they leave, they come again.
and the cycle goes on, and on, and on...

hmmm.

have been doing Disciple for the week, topic is on Wonder. God, who is the Wonder Himself, created everything from nothing. and we're what but just the creatures who take care of and keep in order the World and life that He has created for us. okay what am i talking about. i've only done my homework up to Day 3!

JAE has broken many's heart, in a way or another. some were lucky, some were not. i'm simply overjoyed that the 6 appeal cases in 08S64 got through! wish Shaun Vidhu and Wee Hoe all the best in their respective JCs/Poly, but you guys will still be a part of 08S64! some were lucky enough, to be able to depend on nepotism and money to get their way around. some kind of meritocracy the schools in Singapore have, eh? kinda contradict what was taught in SS, isn't it?

to the 2 VJCSB peeps who didn't get in :
although it's very unlikely that you will read this, but just to say something here. you guys had been very nice people, it's really good to have known yall, yall had made me feel welcome in VJCSB even though i, unlike many of you, didn't attend NSSN! even though we don't really know each other, but still! haha sorry for not talking to any of you after... ya, because i figured out that i'm not a good consoler and therefore should shut my mouth up! whatever it is, God has His plan, God has His will. He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for all of us! so yup, all the best!

so anyway. it's a new start for some of us. it's a milestone of our journey for others. new people in, old people out. (yesyes, Singlish) and i'm like dead dead dead. because i had lots of homework to hand in tomorrow, and i haven't done any. period.

珍惜

2008-02-22T22:36:00.001+08:00

當你發現自己即將失去某些東西時, 你才會懂的怎樣珍惜.

V-Day over!

2008-02-17T20:55:00.002+08:00

and i was single and available!
and i am STILL single and available! heh.
and i am broke! i tell you why.
besides the usual around $5 i spend on canteen food, ...

i spent $10 on the CHSSB Dinner at Boon Keng with Yun Song. we were only alumnis!
i spent $10 on AVALON APOLLO JTS at ThaiPan. sadly on 4 Jays - Guan Hua, Shawn, Henry, me, and 3 Asses - Jie Hao, Juan Zhen, Danielle.
i spent $15 on Valentines' Day chocs for my angels and mortals and flute section.
i spent $10 on emo dinner at Plaza Sing Gelare (whichever way you pronounce it) with my band-cum-classmates and bandmates.
i spent $10 on 08S64 lunch at Cafe Cartel and $6 on Jumper.
i spent $12 on meals before and during Band STJ (seriously they provided almost no food!) and $7 on bike rentals at ECP.
and i spent $3 on a plate of chicken rice at our usual kopitiam :P

conclusion: i am broke. and what an eventful week huh. went back home NOT EARLIER THAN 9 on ALL these days, (of course other than today luh) i got so sick of outside food i just wish i could've been a good boy and eat dinner at home.

for more information on XCountry (Friday) and Band STJ (Saturday), go do some blog-hopping around! i'm lazy to give narration now as i'm too shagged after being my first ever TQ comm. meeting in my TQ life! *imagine being drowned in WZDS' saliva for 3 hours* hahahaha!

anyway Disciple course is pretty good today. expected it to be much more 兇 but actually not to that much extent la. good! i shall be faithful and do my homework everyday! (i DON'T MEAN GP homework)

time to go! God bless!

and i'm BACK! yes i'm BACK! and i'm BACK! YES i'm BACK in BLACK!

2008-02-10T18:05:00.001+08:00

that was a song by AC/DC by the way.

to reply the tags...
[CLONE!] so when this coming week, tetra gang? cya ppl!
[thomas] no prize, pon-star :P
[sheng kang] thomas answered that question perfectly well.
[ingmar] i'm glad u've attained nirvana and received enlightenment. *HARHAR* cya tmr!
[xiaowei] yes yes will link. SOON. okay luh i'll link.
[ChinCher] HOI! i'm back! had fun like duh! haha!
[Qinyi AND moyi] you guys huh... watch movie then go watch LAH why come spam on my poor little tagboard! and i thought got meeting today afternoon how come cancel! cya coming Saturday!

so, i'm back from MALAYSIA! as for what and why am i doing there, i guess i've explained it to everyone like one million times so can i pppplllllleeeeeaaasssssssseeeeee don't answer that question? PLEASE! and please don't ask me which part of Malaysia i went, because that question is difficult to answer! haha.

anyway...
it's the same old Malaysia i'm visiting once again. as for details, i choose to leave them out this time, haha, or else it'll be the same old boring recounts you guys are reading. anyway to summarise CNY, it's

lots of shandy (till i get drunk. no la 1% alcohol how to get drunk!)
lots of angpao
lots of homework on the 1st day
lots of teevee
lots of food
more of lots of food
lots of sleep
lots of kids (aka my cousins at my mother's side and my cousin at my father's side's kids!)

no photos... so too bad :P

anyway I BOUGHT LED ZEPPELIN'S MOTHERSHIP AT THE JUSCO THERE! Mothership is an album compiling all the Zeppelin classics. i'm listening to it right now. just found out their songs are pretty difficult to rehearse, with all the confusing timings on the drum and guitar separately. haha. was pondering whether to buy that or Jimi Hendrix's Experience Hendrix (also compilation of Hendrix classics). Mothership's packaging is much nicer though :P

aiyah too bad la, didn't shop much because the shops were mostly closed on CNY and the Jusco we went (at Klang, somewhere near KL so don't ask where's that) so GOT INPUT NO OUTPUT! (of ringgits) hahaaha. wanted to buy my sneakers/shoes there but turned out they sell them at a rip-off price so might as well come back Singapore buy.

alright that's for my very very very very short update on CNY and Malaysia! missed out all the fun with S64 at CNY Eve, urgh! okayokay God bless!

(that reminds me, i've gotta start doing Disciple soon. :P)

just an update before MALAYSIA! outdated one

2008-02-05T20:31:00.000+08:00

*THIS POST IS DELAYED DUE TO "UNFORSEEN CIRCUMSTANCES"! SO ACTUALLY I POSTED THIS THING ONLY ON SUNDAY, 10/02/2008!*

hi people. do not be mistaken by my previous post as having a harsh tone or having any derogatory purposes! in fact i was feeling pretty calm while typing that post eh. the purpose of the previous post is to : 1) tell a funny story; 2) to narrate what had happened on the Friday before 08S64's lunch at PP's Jack's Place! haha. but i... eh not only me, but the rest of the brothers out there, seriously wish to knock some sense into that idiot. yeah.

anyway. the dogs went on parade yesterday again. HAHA.

hmmm.

many things happened as the weekend went by...

like 08S64's lunch at PP's Jack's Place on Friday after school!

Jack's Place is a very interesting place. such that my wallet had a super big hole after i came out of it. haha i don't mind that once in a while though.

like going AHS Band concert with the whole bunch of VJCSB people!

[get photos from TEHCAMWHORERS and insert into this blank here]

ya, went to AHS after TQ on that Saturday all the way from AMK to Tanah Merah. was late, but thanks to Olivia and Gabriel i got my ticket and went in only at their 3rd song. SORRY AND THANKS FOR WAITING! but anyway darn funny, i also dunno why i went, even the AHSB-VJCSB people were very surprised that i went, especially when both Daniel and Alyssa or Ingmar Salim didn't go. (because i didn't attend NSSN therefore i'm not exactly in their clique anyway) but haha glad that i went la. they played Noah's Ark! (their SYF07 choice piece) okay that was random. and they discovered something very funny. they discovered that i REALLY look like Yanzhu with our specs on! haha. maybe one day i'll show you guys the photo they took, then you guys judge.

okayokay shall update next time when i come back from M'sia. (which is now) God bless people.

重色輕友

2008-02-03T09:45:00.000+08:00

one fine Friday, Daniel and i were at the canteen House Comm. area waiting for Jason, Alyssa and Ci Yi to fill up their forms for application for House Comm. then out of nowhere i saw a dog taking his partner walking around in the canteen as if they were on some dog show. darn funny. then Jason saw them too. so spontaneously, we shouted "CINDY!". the female dog (who was wearing a navy blue pinafore and had slightly dyed/highlighted hair) turned around, only to wonder who the heck called her. so when Alyssa and Daniel asked, "who's Cindy?", i replied, "the b_st__d's b__ch."

1 month gone

2008-01-31T22:02:00.000+08:00

so fast ah alamak.

today i slept 1 hour in bus 43.
the speeches made by Ursa house SC nominees were very interesting.
S64 was late for literally every lecture/tutorial.
got lectured everywhere we go.
Thomas our pon-star didn't come to school today again.
Wee Hoe too.
went Parkway with S64 for lunch today.
had sectionals in the afternoon.
after that i stayed to wait for Daniel in the band room while doing some Partial Fractions tutorial.
then we left and went to the bus stop.
i took bus 43 home, slept for another hour.
reached home, makan, bathe.
finished up Partial Fractions, did the Physics Physical Quantities Assignment, going to do Chem tutorial.
switched on computer, came typing rubbish here.

is my last day of January 2008 interesting enough? YES, OF COURSE :D

so...

"If the weight of the buoy is 50N, what is the magnitude of the Archimedean upthrust?"

that's a very good question, because i don't what the hell is an Archimedean upthrust because Miss Foo didn't teach us anything about it. haha.

God bless, people...

why must DD/SS curve be a straight line?

2008-01-29T21:33:00.000+08:00

that (referring to the title of this post) really beats me. especially when i have Econs DD and SS Tutorial to do by Thursday!

i slept like a log during the 2nd period of Econs Lecture today, honestly it felt quite 爽 and great, but er, NOT when you realise you have an Econs test at Term 1 Week 10 during Tutorial! i am exactly pretty excited about it, i want to see how bad i fail my first Econs test :P

urgh, just received a message forwarded from Dafril, my Flute Section SL, directly quoted, even the punctuations, short forms and smiley face :D

"SL tell the yr1s in the section that even though the games preceeds over cca.ask them to weigh the situation coz our competition is coming.so come for bprac :)"

so that means i cannot join the Inter-House games tomorrow with 08S64~! awwww... but actually i don't really want to play Handball either. the stupid game was assigned to us after seeing that there was an overflow of classes joining Captain Ball. cuckoo! i want to play Captain Ball one okay! after all it's the only game which i can proudly say that i'm "quite good in". (okay fine, it was pretty much self-proclaimed) but even so i would still like to cheer for S64 and Ursa House! haha so no chance already, just be a good boy and go for band, Lam Yi Yong!

okay that was pretty random rambling. off i go to do some Tutorial, write some Angel and Mortal letters, do some QT, read some Discipleship and get some sleep! God bless people.

08S64 CNY board

2008-01-28T21:14:00.000+08:00

IT'S DONE!

refer to 08S64 blog for the other parts of the post on the same topic! :D

God bless!

how do you title this

2008-01-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

guilty.
is when you caused a guy who doesn't know how to cycle to fall down and injure his leg, just because you were swerving around to scare him who was on your backseat on a double-seat bike. next you left him (who was not very fit) alone to push a bike all the way from NSRCC (the one near Tanah Merah) to ECP, leaving him with no water, causing him to be almost dehydrated by the time you find him which is one hour later, while you were hitching a ride on a lorry to transport the broke-down double-seat bike all the way back to ECP.

blessed.
is when some kind soul (noted to be a Christian) stopped his cycling journey to help cleanse the wound of the guy i've mentioned just now. on top of that, you've actually found someone driving a lorry at NSRCC to transport your tyre-punctured-wheel-dented double-seat bike back to ECP without any charge. and you actually found the guy mentioned above still in an okay condition at Bedok area stretch of ECP.

tired/shagged/dying.
is when you had to carry the stupid tyre-punctured-wheel-dented double-seat bike everywhere, and you had to cycle all the way back to find the guy mentioned just now on a double-seat bike. and back. and you've to keep fixing the stupid chain which keeps dropping off when gear is changed. and you've grease all over, and you feel like er... crap.

dejected.
is when you have no idea how your groupmates/DS/whoever will see you as a group leader after all the hoohas mentioned above had happened.

happy.
is when you get to have a nice meal of Subway after everything above mentioned has passed. and you have a nice fellowship with your group members during the trip. and you know that God's watching from above all along :D

so that pretty much sums up our first youth group outing to ECP, which ended up combining with YJ's group!

photos courtesy of Guan Liang. as usual i look retarded in both photos!

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there is this saga going on at home, it's regarding my O's results. apparently, i scored better than both my sisters, 99.9% because of the cream of crop leaving for IP (which makes all of us becoming the cream of crop) and 0.01% because i'm better in Math and Science la. so my parents were quite insensitive to that and uh, i guess you can guess what happen next.

so that caused a lot of resentment within the family (of course i'm the victim and neutral party la duh) and i think both my sisters were very unhappy with the fact that my parents (especially my father) continued harping on that stupid O's issue. then uh, i was verbally-abused and ill-treated in the process? tsk. what to do? people too clever liao. NAH THAT WAS JUST A JOKE. haha anyway it's just a stupid saga, i believe it will be gone soon.

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anyway i guess i've pretty much settled down in VJCSB already. that's a GOOD thing by the way, if you haven't noticed -.- got to know more people in Band, other than Ingmar Salim, and my 08S64-classmates-cum-bandmates, and my flute section batchmates. they knew a bit more about me too, about my versatile voice which can switch to act-gay mode whenever i like and revert back to normal mode. (cuckoo i was forced into it)

the seniors (Dafril, Charissa, Eng Hwee, Du Chen) and batchmates (Jia Ling, Olivia) are nice people too, at least i felt at home. i've photos! they're here!

photos courtesy of Olivia the SELF-PROCLAIMED Princess, sorry but i can't help adding in the SELF-PROCLAIMED part :P

alright these are photos taken one day before receiving our O's results, Du Chen is not inside. (i guess we know why) anyway Olivia just told me we can camwhore a lot in New York (yes New York! Carnegie Hall!) because she's got like lots of memory cards which can take 1000s of photos! YAY!

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before i go off, here are the Swensons photos which i promised to put up. ripped off from Tommy! (i mean Thomas)

the last photo was meant to be twit -_- anyway i refuse to post the brokeback photo to make sure that i still have my image HAHA!

alright God bless people!

aftermath

2008-01-25T20:48:00.000+08:00

so that's it.
don't be mistaken, not here to show off.

anyways, i've fulfilled my initial targets for O's at the beginning of Sec 4. (remember? we're supposed to hand in a retarded "my targets" list to Mr. Tan) along the way, i got a little ambitious, decided that perhaps my languages are not that bad, maybe i can chiong for HCL A1. so i tried, i succeeded in Prelim III. but ya, God's will, i ended up achieving what i set out to get. ironic huh? reminds me of stories of people doing a lot and strayed in path in the process, and ending up back to square one, where they originally were. argh what am i talking about anyway.

ya there were lots of hoohas in Cath High yesterday, especially when the HODs started posting top scorers' results (6A1s ++) on the Hall of Fame outside General Office. saw people around me, some hysterical, some crying like shit, some emoing, some worried, some nonchalant. well. i was actually feeling pretty neutral when i saw my name up there, a bit happy that my worst dreams (9A2) did not come true, ha.

there were even more hoohas upon receiving our O's slips. people dropping from 8A1s to 5A1s or worse. people suffering for Over-Mod results. people who used to get 1 for English went down to 2. 2 to 3. or even 1 to 3. 4 out of 5 China scholars in my class flunked English. Ingmar getting D7 for HCL. (it did cause a big hooha by Ingmar himself) people getting 2s for 3 sciences. all sorts of things.

but anyway on a brighter note, as a whole Cath High did better than last year's batch, breaking new records in terms of L1R5 and individual subjects MSG/% Dist! good job people.

Mr. Tan treated to Swensons after results! photos not with me though. will upload them someday.

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anyway after a day and night of hoohas (08S64 discussion on results), everyone was pretty afraid of not being able to make it back in VJC. Alyssa, Daniel, Yun Han and Ci Yi got 9 without bonus, and all are worrying like shit as they were afraid of not meeting cut-off. the two girls even cried like shit upon receiving results. (they said so) Wei Zhen, Chin Cher and Shaun got 10, and they're all considering whether to appeal or just give up. Vidhu got 12. Wee Hoe got 25 (blackjack burst according to him) Yibo got D7 for English. seems like they're leaving soon... :(

argh whatever it is, just pray hard that all the 9 and 10 pointers can get in! i seriously don't want 08S64 to be split up! after all we are one of the most bonded J1 class in VJC! outing to Parkway Giant, J&S, Thaipan... i hope that we'll be able to continue all these for another 2 years!

the class.

whatever it is. God has His plans, His will. :D

lots to say, no time to post. till the next time, God bless.

LAM YI YONG IS BROKE

2008-01-17T20:13:00.001+08:00

after he has spent lots of money buying sweets and food for his angels and mortals.

yup.

my blog is so dead and boring

2008-01-12T23:26:00.000+08:00

NOT
:D

today is the 12th day of 2008.
8 school days in VJC had passed.
and it was GREAT! yeah!

haha i know it's pretty late to talk about this, but VJ orientation was yeah, a blast! i was in orientation group AVALON (according to the tale of the Victorian Land, Avalon is a chiobu who plays the flute and summons leaves) and sub-OG APOLLO. yeah 'twas great: cheers, mass dances, plots and skits, games, WET games, after-school OG dinners and lunch, mass dance at Fountain of Wealth @ Suntec, Sea Regatta... everything was great! lotsa fun at Suntec! even though i hated dancing (i still do) nevertheless it's fun running around the Fountain in the RAIN and dancing together with hundreds of other people. anyway, i suffered a bit, since VJ's known for their cheering culture and all of us cheered as if we'd no tomorrow, resulting in my bad throat which lasted for quite some time.

(anyway, i do agree that Sea Regatta was a bit 掃興 at first since that Mr Tan Yew Hwee shouted and banned us from going near the sea. we hecked him and dunked the girls in our OG anyway :P)

i guess we've to specially thank all the OGLs for the O1 to happen successfully.

honestly i felt really welcomed in VJC because of my friendly OGLs! Laura, Jiehao, Juan Zhen, Danielle (these are the OGLs of AVALON APOLLO) and others etc etc etc! and not to forget those friends i've made during O1! nice bunch of people, i must really say. at least i don't feel left alone with all of you guys! yup!

but anyway, back to reality. SCHOOL HAS STARTED IN VJ. awwwwwwww.

i'm put in 08S64, a largely PCME class with 3 CCME students. Patrick, Jason and Yibo ended up in the same class as me again, so Cat High dominated the 24-strong class, even the VS boys are outnumbered.

the class was pretty quiet when we first met up in C22, a classroom in the Container block. our cuckoo Civics Tutor Ms Cai Liting didn't make the atmosphere any better; she's pretty... er... cuckoo and new to the school. she got Jason and i mixed up on the 1st CT session! how wonderful. she was so cuckoo that she thought that i was late for school instead of JASON when ironically, she was the one who marked my attendance during the morning assembly! so cuckoo la.

but anyway, i'm glad that our class isn't quiet anymore after our official CT session on Tuesday, we're actually pretty bonded already after a few days, moving together to various venues and stuffs like that. i hope that continues.

for clarification purposes...

I'VE DECIDED. to stay in band in VJ and continue my journey as a flautist.
yup. it's not going to be easy.
but i'll persevere.
for i know i'm not running the race alone.
He's with me.

:D

update till here, more to go next time. God bless :D

2008的第一天

2008-01-01T18:38:00.000+08:00

1 month. and it's 2008 already.

once again, my apologies for letting this site rot once again for another month. kind of lazy and uninspired to talk lots of crap anyway. the ironic thing is i switch on my computer almost everything... to do stupid things like watch AC/DC on Youtube :P

2007. it was certainly a fruitful year. but not in such a way that i want to relive it over and over again. things like mugging for O's Combined Humanes and waking up at 4am everyday during the Band's SYF period, once is enough. but still despite all the trouble and shaggedness (haha is there even such a word) 2007 is still a year not to be forgotten. i've grown so much from all the experience once again, and what's more important i see Him doing works in my life, especially during the period when i had to juggle so many things together, something which i've never felt so strong for the past 15 years perhaps. i thank God for 2007.

anyway, i thank God for 2007 because He has given me the opportunity to know my churchmates once again :D i've known all of them so much better than before, i guess they'll comment the same thing too. hey brothers and sisters, if anyone reading this, i thank all of you! let's progress in 2008 and make TQ a better one :D

2008. not going to be an easy year. starting to serve as a 組長 in TQ, bassist/guitarist in 第二堂. don't forget about 門徒 I which i'm going to attend in place of Sunday school. heard from my sister's that the workload is horrible. thank God i'm not taking the course in the A's year. besides JC life will confirm be more shagged, and i still got CCA to worry.

speaking of that i haven't decided what CCA to join, (answering Thomas and Junfeng's question) it depends whether the time slots clash with my stuffs in church. but (to state once again) i'm considering Band, Guit Ensemble and ODAC (psychoed by Thomas). checked VJ Band website, their practices are on Wednesday afternoon and Saturday morning. sectionals another thing altogether. so doesn't have any clashes actually, but i may not join band as being in band for another 2 years can be hell... shagged man.

schoooooooooooool's tomorrow, at VJ. 1 hour trip there at least, and another hour back. hmmm kinda look forward to it, but not the mass dance part :P

God bless.

very random

2007-12-03T14:58:00.000+08:00

(on 16/11/2007, when i took a bus home alone after PAE briefing)

for that one minute, i was the only passenger on bus 156.

for that one minute, the driver was driving only for me.

I WAS THE KING! :D

(eh lame... *shivers in cold*)

and...

2007-12-03T14:44:00.000+08:00

ya, it was okay in the end. misunderstandings cleared.

but one thing...

I AM TURNING LAZY!

so less words, less typing.

probably more photos or something.

i am sure more of you will like that instead of the looooonnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggg winded posts, and boring recounts, eh? :D

alright. let's get it started here.

ya.

2007-11-30T20:23:00.000+08:00

i guess, i am just someone who is bad with my usage of words.

that i had really unknowingly offended people and caused unhappiness in the process.

i am sorry.

maybe i should shut my mouth next time, alright?

12 days, and an update. [#1]

2007-11-28T19:25:00.000+08:00

so... did anyone miss me?

well, apparently not.

or maybe any of you did.

alright. that was... random. *cold*

haha guys, sorry for not posting anything for like... 11 days? i am just plain lazy despite being able to use the computer practically everyday. anyway, there are quite lotsa stuffs which happened for these days and i have absolutely no idea where to start from. so to make things easier, i think i am just going to give a "short" (and boring) recount of what has happened for the past 11 days.

(VERY DRAGGY RECOUNT STARTS HERE...)

day 1 (17/11, Saturday)
before TQ had DANCE session with my two buddies under Ai Jia in preparation for Christmas Eve. rather reluctant and "forced". if it's not for my two buddies who somehow promised Ai Jia... haha forget it. since i'm already in, cannot dance also must dance! *sob*

TQ P&W i was guitarist under Ziyu's request (he was leading). 4th consecutive time. duet-ed guitar with Moyi. a bit hiccups but okay la i hope. i remembered no one singing 只因祢 (a song in SOP new album 最珍貴的角落) other than Ziyu!

TQ programme was Bible study, about not following the trends of the world blindy.

Captain Ball after that, as usual. SPRAINED MY LEFT ANKLE! that was so deja vu of what happened at Capt Ball Competition in July. but one thing - that time was RIGHT ankle. and this time round i didn't continue playing like what i did the other time round.

didn't eat dinner with the others, went home with Yong Jing as it's quite late already.

day 2-4 (18-20/11, Sunday-Tues)
church. reached late for Sunday 10.15am because Dad dragged me to the 鐵打 man. it went on as usual, sermon was about King David and how he seek wisdom from God. limped around with my sprained ankle to do the Media stuffs.

at Sumo House with all the 弟兄s because i can't have cold drinks in Mac, i was so hungry i ate 2 bowls of Katsudon and 2 pregnant fishes. (loads of eggs inside! urgh) limped around again before heading to AMK interchange to take 22 to Tampines for class chalet.

almost got lost on my way to the chalet. Aloha Changi IS very ulu with its horrible location. thank God i brought the map Mr. Tan printed out for us. it was raining when i got down the bus at the chalet bus stop, so i got drenched as i didn't have an umbrella.

so reached the chalet, limping, with Mr. Tan shouting "Birthday boy here already!" and 10+ people singing "Happy Birthday" song to me. quite stunned, my only reply after they finished singing was "eh... today is not my birthday yet." all of them LOL-ed. after drying myself with a towel i sat down with Wei Jie and others to play the card game called Saboteur. Thomas, Mugger Tan, Gary and Sheng Kang were on Mahjong. others were actually LAN gaming on their laptops. hello, you LAN game during a chalet?! ridiculous yeah?

(anyway just a sidenote, there was a KACUA which flew around while we were playing, i actually used the O's MCQ papers which Sheng Kang was distributing to kill it!)

to summarise the chalet, it was...

an indoor chalet
full of Mahjong
full of Saboteur
full of Dai Dee
full of LAN gaming (which sucks because one can always LAN at home)
full of microwaved sausages (since the BBQ fire isn't that well)
full of O's MCQ papers lying around
full of people attempting to taupok me on 19th November, 11pm
full of er... Rubik's cube? (all thanks to Thomas and Junfeng)

oh ya. the whole class literally jacked me by asking me to come in to the chalet at 11pm while i am at the BBQ pit. they started singing Happy Birthday and Tawan came out with a 2kg Choc Cake. was a bit stunned, a bit touched, and a bit sian as well. (because my throat is already exploding) then Mrs Goh and Ms Thian who were at the BBQ congratulated me before leaving, and Mrs Goh even wanted to give angpao before she left. oh well, of course i rejected la.

birthday presents were good, thanks to Thomas and Junfeng (dogs! who gave me the retarded dog bone and their "designer's" North Star sneakers), Tawan (for the ZipIt! pouch), Ber Fong (Merci Chocs) and the other few who chipped in for the Biggest album. (although honestly, they could have gotten some nicer albums. they should know that i don't listen to English Pop yeah?)

ya don't doubt it, those two dogs forced me into taking this picture.

alright so we left the chalet on 20/11, as we need to rush back for PAE. in all it was actually a bit disappointing because only half the class turned up. this again shows how disunited and self-centered our class is. but seriously, it's their own loss if they didn't even turn up, we had fun and that's it. anyway got our class DRAMA T-shirt, designed by our ELDDS DRAMA president Lim Ting Wen Thomas. yes Thomas, i am still a bit 耿耿於懷 about the design with YOUR name bold behind it. LOL.

anyway after the chalet, i was down with flu although my sprained ankle recovered a lot. my sisters gave me $12 to buy my guitar strings! (mine are rusting at a fast rate) and great thanks to those who wished me Happy Birthday via SMS! the one to be most credited is Yong Jing who SMSed despite having to save up money! (he seldom tops up his M1 card) so ya thanks!

day 5 (21/11, Wednesday)
went work for dad. sian, because many of the things requires experience to do and i don't have any apparently. my father works as a person who install air-cons generally in shopping centre shops and ya, stuffs like that. this time round was a VivoCity. i got like 1 hour to tour round Vivo since it was lunch break and i couldn't be of much help to my father that time anyway. so felt a bit guilty when i got my pay despite not doing much other than carrying stuffs around and holding on to ladders.

rushed to DANCE later. was late. it sucks to dance with a left ankle which is not totally recovered. urgh. to make things worse... alright forget it, i shall not mention. my progress is slower than my two buddies. but ya, it's at least faster than the girls :D was GLAD to hear that Ai Jia was going to Bali with her mum for a few days. meaning NO DANCE! haha. i am going to give my word that after Christmas Eve, anyone can forget about asking me to dance :P

reached home quite late at 11+ (ya, it's late because my mum called to nag) my 二姊 forced me to stay up with her in my room as she needs to study for her uni exams the coming week. so alright, i got her MacBook Pro from her and watched SCHOOL OF ROCK on some cheenah website. (sudden urge) darn! the thing couldn't load at the 2nd part of the movie. so i went YouTube and watched videos of Jimi Hendrix, AC/DC, Guns N Roses, Deep Purple... these rock legends are quite nice. Jimi Hendrix is a left handed guitarist who plays right handed guitars! alright not the point. then went Wiki and read up a bit on Jimi Hendrix and AC/DC since i had nothing to do. slept at 4 when 二姊 was shagged too.

day 6 (22/11, Thursday)
woke up at 12.15pm, with my sisters coming in and calling the lazybum up. i've broken my all-time record! i've NEVER, i repeat, NEVER, woke up any later than 12pm. ya my biological clock will always wake me up much earlier. skipped breakfast, ate lunch, went to Hougang's J and Jas to cut hair as it's totally off, came back, went on Maple and tracked that Ziyu (/find hmm01) was online, deesiao-ed, called him noob when he is Level 64. (shush! i'm only 43) and found out that he was the keyboardist for 第二堂 this Sunday. GOOD! that means jamming after prac that day! YAY

went to 第二堂 prac that night as usual. was half an hour late, but doesn't matter because i'm there just for probation. bass slot EMPTY again, dunno who was supposed to serve. so anyway i went up to rehearse the bass parts again :D Wei De (the 主席/領唱 that week) did something quite special, he initiated a sharing session halfway through the prac before rehearsing the song "Dwelling Places". we were supposed to share about this question:

how has your relationship with God been for the past year?

and he said something very true during the sharing:

many of a times we may be very busy with many stuffs in church, serving God with passion. but when we look back and we ask ourselves, how much do we actually love God? we may not even know the answers ourselves. the most important thing is still to "come back to the heart of worship" (ya i'm rephrasing what he's said in English and in my own words) and remember that we are doing all these because we love Him, truly.

the same thing was repeated during his P&W that Sunday. i will always remember that when i start serving.

so anyway, we had to figure out the chords for "Dwelling Places" after the sharing because the chords given by Wei De were apparently wrong after we listened to the song. Ziyu started playing on the keyboard trying to figure out... figure... so somehow we caught it but still, it sounds a bit wrong. so we continued with prac and tadah! it went smoothly till the end. but well, it's NOT OVER!

we started jamming random songs for Yong Jing to prac on drums and Bryan was teaching him some stuffs... etc etc. so Ziyu, Moyi and i just continued to play random songs like 讚美之泉 (the song, not the ministry), 主的喜樂是我力量 ("my song", according to Moyi. because everytime i grab the guitar i will never without fail play that song and its crazy strumming), 揀選, other songs. got a bit sick of the intro of 讚美之泉 because we replayed it like dunno how many times? jammed until 10.40 when Rosemary came and hurried us to keep our setup so that she could go home and rest, sorry Rosemary! so we quickly kept the stuffs and went back home after that. mum nagged on phone again as usual, but i was on the bus home already, she can't say anything :P

reached home and slept after doing QT as i was shagged. (despite waking up at 12.15pm)

day 7 (23/11, Friday)
can't really remember what i did the whole day. i only remembered Wei En wishing me Happy Belated Birthday for Three Days on MSN when ironically, it was HER birthday that day. o.O so i went, "haha, you too! isn't it your birthday today?" and i remembered uh... sending like many many many games to her. (she wants ALL my handphone games which i forgot where i downloaded) oh and she wanted me to be her guitarist the next day for TQ! 5 consecutive weeks. i went alright, got the song list from her, went to play Maple, deesiao Ziyu again, kena called noob, got my Level 40 gloves and shoes before going, went to prac the songs, lay down and rotted, watched teevee, went sleep, went playing lead guitar part of Sweet Child O' Mine on my guitar. (surprisingly i got the hang of it!) decided it was enough for the day, then SLEEP.

day 8 (24/11, Saturday)
woke up late, ended up one hour late for church's 大掃除. i thought i was the ONLY ONE in TQ who went as i spent the 1st 15 minutes searching around the church and only saw the other age groups and people from ETAC and TRAC! tsk. ended up that they were at the back of the church (the very obscure place) removing tree branches and dead leaves! malu malu... the guys who went (Eugene, Guan Liang, Yu Zi) went "YIYONG AH!" when they saw me there. so they said they had just finished their 1st task and we stoned in front of that ETAC man who were washing the algae and dirt of the floor at the carpark there. it didn't occur to me that the floor was SOOOOOOO DIRTY! yucks!

so we went on to do the other task - LOOSEN PATCHES OF SAND WITH GRASS ON IT AT THE PLAYGROUND. wah, that job was totally saikang, we used shovels and 鋤頭s and other stuffs to loosen the patches of sand, and mind you the playground isn't small and there were lotsa places with grass on them. ya saikang-ed under the sun for an hour or so, almost dehydrated, some of them were playing with er... water. -_-

slacked a bit before lunch time came. ate food then the guys went up to MPH and slack. Eugene and Guan Liang were playing with the Captain Ball and Eugene struck the lights! thank God no one was beneath the thingy which he hit down. i was teaching Yu Zi how to play some guitar since he was starting already, and showed him the intro of Smoke On The Water since i was totally bored. ya that went on until Jenny DS called us down to help the uncles at 大堂 to lay the red carpets, vacuum the carpets and align the benches.

went up again, the others were there already. rehearsed a bit of P&W for TQ that day, Qinyi came and she became the guitarist with me. she was a bit sian as i was pretty particular with chords like G/B and C/D. i insisted that they sound different from G and C while she went "uh i don't hear the difference!"

alright so P&W went okay other than the bridge of "I Offer My Life" was quite horrible because Guan Liang didn't get my hint to put the transparencies on the OHP! *stabs myself*

TQ programme was led by Jiaqi and Jenny DS, was about how to spread gospel to kids. quite interesting, never really thought of how to do that. had a good laugh at their demo because Jiaqi DS and Jenny DS had to take turns to "act as the kid". when it's practice time, when it was my turn to "act as the kid", people commented i acted more like a retarded. oops...

after TQ went all the way to Bukit Timah to eat dinner when uh, our church is at Ang Mo Kio? haa, the food there is cheap, and yadayada... the 弟兄s as usual started to play with food (of course, Eugene and Ziyu initiated it) and i think we got quite a lot of stares from those queuing up for Hokkien Mee who happened to queue AROUND our table. haha. then Ziyu left to perform with TJ choir at Wisma. the others decided to go and watch him perform while we NEL peeps decided to take bus 66 to LITTLE INDIA and MRT home. (we tried psychoing Eugene to treat us to take "service 250" but it didn't work :( )

the trip was totally hilarious, we guys (Eugene, Yong Jing, me) were making fun of the poor _________ and their MRT station, Yi Hui (the only girl) couldn't help but keep laughing... i think we received quite a lot of stares.

repeat this sentence: "please press the flush button"

haha! that really got us laughing quite a while. and we couldn't help but continued making fun of _________ and their written language when we reached the MRT station. Yong Jing suggests that you must move your tongue accordingly to how they write their words out! haha! we joke joke joke until Yi Hui attempted to shun away from us because er... "aiyoh, you all so unglam!" HAHA!

so Yi Hui alighted at Kovan, Eugene at Hougang, me supposingly at Buangkok and Yong Jing at Sengkang.

it wasn't the case because i've received a call from Jenny DS while on the way to Buangkok Station. the conversation went like this: she called me to ask me to play 我要向高山舉目 for Sunday School tomorrow. i went, "okay... alright". then she said this:

Yi Yong, i have some serious stuffs to talk to you about now. we DS's (導師們) had discussed and all of us proposed you to join the TQ committee next year. your proposed post will be ________________, and .... .... ... pray about it.

bang. freaked out.

i guess you don't really have to hear the rest of the story. i didn't alight because i wanted Yong Jing to know what happened. after hearing it, he was like "YAY SHE DIDN'T ASK ME TO BE IN THE COMM.!" he said that out of a very lame reason.

i think i will fall asleep during the first meeting in 退休會.

*shivering with cold*

he was just kidding obviously. (although high chances he WILL fall asleep during the meetings.) but i assured him that he WILL be called to get into the committee, it's just a matter of time. he insisted that Jenny DS would have asked to talk to him on my phone if he is to be called since she knew that he was beside me. i simply shrugged. because i knew that he is DEFINITELY SOMEHOW in...

so we parted at Sengkang MRT Station. i went home, bathed, watched teevee, practised a bit of 我要向高山舉目 on guitar, QT-ed before sleeping.

day 10 (25/11, Sunday)
yeehaw! i was correct! i knew it! Yong Jing was approached and dragged out by Jiaqi DS after sermon ended. i was harping at the side while they went out that "it is about some SERIOUS STUFFS". of course, i was right. when Yong Jing came back, he was saying, "hey i have to pray about it already." HAHA.

anyway, 我要向高山舉目 was quite bad, because i didn't play facing the people and i didn't see Jenny DS' signs too. but well, i guessed no one really mind (or care) right? ha. sermon was about King David again, how he made a grave mistake of committing adultery during his days on the throne of King of Israel (read up the Bible about it) and how he realised his mistake, seek forgiveness from God and returned to the right path again. interesting. and we were supposed to write an eulogy on our own "graves" at the end of the sermon. urgh, that sure sounded bad.

then there was this birthday celebration for all the November babies (Yong Jing, Wei En, me)... the fruit cake was nice! haha. and i remembered blowing the candle away before others did. (eeyer... so extra...) after that went fooling around on the piano with Ziyu, he played all sorts of 讚美之泉 (the ministry, not the song) songs on the piano. what did i do? i simply played the bass parts on the piano, whacking the keys like no one's business...

lunch at J8. we went separate ways; some girls went Pastamania, all the guys went KFC and a smaller group was at Macs. (ergh) there was some Treasure Gaust competition for kids right outside KFC, it's for kids to buy and play a super retarded game which you have to go "fishing" for monsters using the GPS (Gaust Positioning System! they called it that seriously!) and train them and fight with other people. LOL! according to their game booklet the game works on an "invisible magnetic force". speaking of kids-scamming tactics...

then we guys went up and play PS3 outside the Sony shop. Eugene so 丟臉 can! because i mean whatever you do will be reflected to everyone via the HDTV facing the reverse direction of the shop. and he went to READ THE DRIVER MANUAL (it was a racing game) on how to drift! hahahahaha! although of course i can't say i can do any better, i didn't play just watched by the way. Ziyu and others took turns to play PSP, the game was FIFA 08. turned out that they either got lots of fouls and cards, lots of throw-ins on the com side or lots of goals conceded! lol. not easy to play i must say. we played until we very tired then went down to Macs and sit down there.

i went home at 7pm. Mum nagged on phone again haha.

the guys called me later at 8pm, asking me whether i could join them play basketball at Ziyu's house in Kovan Melody. they persuaded and persuaded, but i insisted that my Mum will NOT let me play basketball at such a time unless they come here at my house and play. they gave up. HAHA!

alright. this post is getting very long and windy. let's move on to the next one.

bored and random

2007-11-16T16:38:00.000+08:00

i am more and more convinced that i have chosen the right "girl"!

it was 2 days ago when we had grad night. goodness, the band which they invited to gig for the grad night was GREAT. versatile, great skills and vocals even though there are only 3 of them and they had only 2 semi-acous guitars and 1 bass. they played Sweet Child O' Mine and Smoke on the Water on semi-acous guitars! rock classics eh. now i am convinced that you can play rock on acous guitars, definitely.

grad night was okay, i cannot say it was great because oh well, i didn't win anything from the lucky draw. almost won a Nintendo DS Lite. almost. if only the last '0' on my ticket could become an '8'. ("wear a belt", according to Thomas' cold joke)

anyway brought my girl for some exposure. that's to the P&W last Saturday in TQ la. -_- actually the main reasons were that the TQ acous guitar had a high action and i know i can't last 30+ songs with that one, and that well... its preamp had some problem. but well well well, even my girl can't save me from making some errors like switching wrong chords for songs without the scores at all and having a lousy transition from song to song, key to key... looks like i need to practise more eh?

speaking of practising, i have been attending 第二堂 P&W practices after O's every Thursday or otherwise, to pick up tips and to observe as well. attended 2 so far. during June i attended 1. out of these 3 times i was made (or rather i volunteered myself enthusiastically) to play the bass 2 times because there were people who didn't turn up for prac. of course i enjoyed myself in the midst of playing for Him. the feeling is quite the same but quite different from playing in Band. (as in, CCA) deciding to serve isn't easy, preparing to serve isn't easy, serving isn't easy either. but i'll PERSEVERE for Him! yada yada yada... i guess i am getting crappy here.

oh... just a random note. DON'T GO PENINSULAR TO BUY YOUR GUITARS IF YOU WANT GREAT SERVICE! i got "chased" out of davisguitar for touching a darned knob of one of their amps. stupid. i would not have stepped into that shop if it's not the only distributor of Takamine guitars! go Swee Lee instead. they let you try all sorts of guitars for free there. (of course other than those Gibson ones) and they are quite newbie-friendly i guess. although i cannot be considered a newbie either. they gave good suggestions for the accessories too. value for money. ya. so, GO SWEE LEE AND FORGET ABOUT PENINSULAR!

honestly, i am darn bored and i also don't know what i am rambling about. bored of mapling after getting to level 43. shall not waste time like that (on gaming especially on stupid games) too. so let me continue rambling...

4-8! those going class chalet! remember to bring enough $$ for your food over the days! we (as in, the class comm. and Mr Tan) won't be supplying any of your meals other than the BBQ! just a sidenote, i heard that there are lots of good food there at Changi... so bring MONEY in order not to get stuffed. BRING ALL YOUR VIDEO GAMES TOO! there'll be a teevee there at Aloha Changi. more details go Aloha Changi website here.

3 more days to chalet! :D

meanwhile... take care of your bodies!

God bless all.

OVER.

2007-11-13T17:35:00.000+08:00

ya. it's officially over today at 10.30am, when i handed my last PMCAS form for Biology with SPA (5099/01).

it means many things.
1) grad night tomorrow at Marina Mandarin
2) PAE
3) 4-8 chalet
4) 6A gathering
5) spending hours on guitar
6) start to have proper QTs
7) start work

and i started mapling again after 5th November. and it's still as retarded as it used to be :D one thing i'm sure - i won't spend long hours on it.

alright just a short update for now, God bless people!

my wife~

2007-11-09T10:29:00.000+08:00

i am going to fetch my wife home this afternoon. :D

it has been long since i have fallen in love again. i thought i won't be able to fall in love again. one day however, i felt really empty inside and i felt that i really needed a partner soon. so i started looking around and searching for my dream girl to appear.

finally. i found her on this matchmaking website online, with her photo attached and her descriptions there. oh my, she was just gorgeous and beautiful. there were just so many people who had given positive comments about her. immediately, she has caught my eyes. day by day, i knew her even better, and i was determined to take her home someday.

things did not go as smoothly as i had thought it would be. one day i decided to announce to my family about my love for her. i met nothing but objections. my family complained that she was too noisy and lively and she would bring nothing but trouble and headaches to the family. i sighed. i knew that she was not the one for me. i had no choice but to go looking out for love again.

i went back to the matchmaking website and forced myself into looking at other girls. gradually, i realised that there are many girls out there better than her. there was a plethora of choices such that i did not even know how to choose the right one for me. i decided to go down to the matchmaking place and take a good look at them.

i shortlisted some girls from the website before going on a visit. darn, they were all so gorgeous. i went interacting with them - some of them feel good, some not; some of them sounded good, some not... there were just so many choices that i did not know who to choose. i decided to go home and think through first before deciding again.

yesterday.

i brought my parents to meet them again, at the matchmaking website. they agreed that all had unique looks and felt good too. this time round, i felt in love with one of them. she is just - GOOD. i had then decided to marry her, and my parents were satisfied too. so we went to the ROM and signed up for the marriage. we had given some 聘金 and i am going to fetch her back today, because she needs one day to clear up her things there in the matchmaking place.

so, here's a photo of my love now.

IBANEZ SX72!

alright alright shut up, i know it's lame :P but i have figured out that i won't have the chance to write a recount/narrative again in JC, so i am spinning out stupid stories for this one last time.

in the case that you are still confused...

first "her" is Epiphone G-310
second "her" is Ibanez SX72
"matchmaking website" is Google search engine, SweeLee.sg and more...
"matchmaking place" is Swee Lee @ Bras Basah
"ROM" is the cash counter in Swee Lee

*cold*

alright that's all for now, shall post more someday later! God bless!

THREE DAYS

2007-11-02T12:21:00.000+08:00

yea, three days to freedom. alright actually it's partial freedom, because there are still the MCQ I's (Geog, Chem, Phy, Bio) which we will take over a period of one week. but, WHO CARES?!

to refresh your memories...

~~A Math I~~
~~A Math II~~
~~Chem II~~
~~Geog II~~
~~Hist E.~~
EL
~~E Math I~~
~~E Math II~~
~~HCL~~
~~Phy II~~
SS
Bio II
all the MCQ I's

yup. PHYSICS IS OVER! the paper was quite okay, thank God that the explanation question was quite easy, can bluff your way through. so far i have only found 3 marks deducted. (the graph thingy which i thought is supposed to apply Ohm's Law) but well it's over, so don't care also :P

Melphin got called up by the CPE for the SECOND time today after exams. the last time was right after E Math I for passing a piece of paper with working to Junfeng, this time was for amending answer during collection of booklet. the CPE kinda let them off the other time, i wonder what will happen this time... but seriously Melphin kinda "deserve it", he always had the habit of talking right after paper was collected and amending answers after the examiner announces that time's up. i know it best since i always sit behind him during exams. -_- so well. i wonder what the CPE did to our dear 2136/0264 this time round.

on a brighter note, i am left with SS and Bio. going to mug real hard these 3 days for the FINAL MASSACRE on coming Monday. and i will be standing up proud and say... I SURVIVE!

to end this stupid entry...

AH! EPIPHONE LES PAUL G-310 VINTAGE WHITE! i know it's somewhere in Peninsular Plaza right now waiting for me to fetch it home someday after O's. i JUST know it. :D

alright, God bless, LAST LAP, PEOPLE!

not a long way to go

2007-10-31T15:39:00.000+08:00

~~A Math I~~
~~A Math II~~
~~Chem II~~
~~Geog II~~
~~Hist E.~~
EL
~~E Math I~~
~~E Math II~~
~~HCL~~
Phy II
SS
Bio II
all the MCQ I's

yup. so that kinda sums up what has happened over these two weeks. and what's going to happen the coming days.

the very first thing to look forward after Os :

tadah!

Epiphone Les Paul G-310. *drools* i think i'll buy the Vintage White one. ya, i am going to buy it with my own money. so don't start saying that i am rich or what! (remember? i once said that i am on Edusave Bursary every year :D) i am still thinking of where and at what price i am going to buy an amp though...

and now i am really wondering why Ting Ting came asking for SS O's syllabus online and what topics i am spotting, when she has taken the exam like eh... 2 years ago? (she claims that she is retaking SS/Geog FOR FUN. haha?!) it's probably a joke or something? lol.

alright that's all for today. God bless!

it has started.

2007-10-25T08:50:00.000+08:00

O LEVELS. IT HAS STARTED FOR 3 DAYS.

thank God A Math Papers and Chem II is good.

next up this afternoon, GEOG II.

yea. just a very short update. i was actually looking at other school's Prelim papers on my computer.

God bless!

what i have learnt over the weekend

2007-10-16T12:06:00.000+08:00

i have realised that i am good at tolerating.

now let me list to you what i found out i can tolerate:
1) someone undoing your shoelaces SEVEN times in a row, on purpose
2) someone recording your name down on the phone and KEEP replaying it
3) someone talking non-stop like the buzzing of a mosquito beside you
4) someone fidgeting, making the whole bench shake
5) someone fiddling with a Bible
6) someone poking you for no reason
7) someone POURING water on your back
8) someone laughing at your retainers thinking that it's dead funny
ETC ETC

mind you, these things happened during a SERMON. or two to be exact. oh ya, and i was actually smiling after that kid poured water on my back after the sermon, and people were like staring at him and me. note, i did not even feeling a tinge of anger in me.

am i zai or something?

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i have realised that what you see is all up in your perspective.

we tend to complain a lot about everything, always seeking for a change in things. but how often do we realise the fact that while some things can be done to salvage a situation, it is sometimes impossible to change the whole situation? yaya, i am talking about it, if anyone of you happened to drop by and realise.

honestly speaking, i was one of those people too, i was waiting for people to "somehow discover that i am there and somehow talk to me", and i know, we tend to blame them to be stuck in their own cliques, crack their own jokes and engage in their own topics, for totally forgetting about that "hey! you actually exist!". but it's kinda human nature for us to forget to include everyone in, it isn't particularly anyone's fault, not your fault, not their fault, and not God's fault either. i remembered seeing things only from a side and resulted in nothing but my own misery. ya sometimes you have attempted to join in but failed, but that doesn't necessarily mean that you are transparent. i have observed it for quite some time already, it isn't true that you didn't initiate, or they didn't initiate, it's just that the time isn't right. so what about changing your perspective and trying again with another approach? :D

so the coming weekend will be another chance. why not?

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i have learnt that i study at an optimum rate in church

that's serious! i realised that when i closed myself up in the MPH on Saturday morning (since it's 培靈會 that night), i could finish up a chapter of Population in Geog II in an hour or so! even with distractions like me walking around in the MPH and playing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star on the piano. -_- so set! i am going to study there again during this week.

alright enough crap i guess. God bless all, have fun studying this week :P

grad. graduation. gratitude.

2007-10-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

my catholic high years are over. yes, over.

now i am very sure. i am going to miss catholic high as a school. yeah i know, i remembered complaining about the school and its principal for making our days horrible. nevertheless, i guess i will miss those days when we had all that crazy and siao acts, all the lame jokes and all the crappiness in school. awwww... *acting emo right now* *cutting my wrist* *sobx sobx w0rhx*

oh ya, i am supposed to make my blog special huh? because Junfeng claims that "lam's blog is like so typical". so, junfeng, i shall start off this post with a very special photo.

yup. i've realised that posting a photo of a very rare breed of DOG is very special. so there goes :D

(anyway, it was thomas who took this photo, which remained in my memory card for months. he was trying to test the durability of my phone camera lens and the screen too.)

ya. Junfeng is one of the guys whom i will miss if i don't get into the same JC as him. i will miss him for his lame crap and his efforts and contributions to neutralise the adverse effects of global warming. and his fats on his back too :P hey dog, don't emo so much okay! and lend me your acoustic guitar once you've bought it :D

(Jason, Yours Truly, Thomas, Junfeng. Jason attempting to force his twit fingers onto my cheeks. *kawaii nehx*)

i will miss the 3 of you. lame crappers sitting behind and around me throughout the year. ya, all the jokes about best friends (AHEM) and who being the hottest, and not to forget making fun of the poor creature namely Tan Kar Woon and his poly(popiah)! haha! but anyway, i realise that we've forgotten to include Yi Xian and Melphin in the photo of the lamers! haha!

(Me, Thomas, Tawan, Melphin. 4-8's dearest enthusiastic class committee)

this is my first and probably the last time i will be in a class committee. honestly speaking, it is real difficult to bring many selfish souls to be united under one, and worst of all, collecting forms and money from uncooperative people. (alright that's blunt) but still! it's fun being the assistant treasurer-secretary (i don't mean the embezzlement part :P) and chasing money over kids together with the chairmans and Thomas. an example of someone whom we have to chase for money and forms is the one with the name written BIG BIG on the whiteboard. that record holder has owed me $10 for English printing fund since Term 1, even the Gen Office got impatient. oh ya, not forgetting our last project as the class comm. - the class chalet :D let's wish it a success! (alright crappy)

(Sheng Kang, Ingmar, Me, Patrick)

the nan chiau guys! ya, i've known you guys for 6 years. (7 for Ingmar) so we have graduated together again in the same class eh? :D

(the two new faces: Li Yuan and Hong Jie)

the Malaysian scholars! (without Mugger Tan) it's fun with you guys for two years. i could still remember being assigned by i-forgot-who to be your guide for the first day. so i am the first local boy that you guys know in the class right? talking to them makes me feel like i am back with my cousins in Malaysia. they have the same slang and accent in Chinese. and anyway, i can carry Li Yuan up even though he is 70kg and round. (Yuan Yuan!) ya of course, i suffered a cramp on my thighs after that.

there are just so many other people whom i will miss in the class. so let's post a class photo up now -_-

(4-8 with Mr. Lin Dan Wen our form teacher, I am jumping on top of Junfeng. notice that i have jumped much higher than Thomas :P note that Kar Woon MIAed and cannot be found anywhere in the photo.)

don't blame me for the cheezyness of this photo. i ripped it off from tawan's blog okay?!

of course, not to forget. our dear unique squad of teachers who are all so great.

Mrs Elaine Goh with her pioneer batch of Secondary 2 students (only the Pure Geog ones)! it's probably her last too. she is the one who kept me interested in Geog in Sec 2, ya and therefore i took Pure Geog. i can never forget her Meg the Rock and the "sedimentary rock" song that she had forced me to solo in Sec 2! inspiring teacher indeed, who cares about the welfare of students too. if i get my 1 for Geog, i owe it to her. we shall not disappoint her as her pioneer batch of Sec 2s and score our 1s in Os! (as posed in the photo, A1!)

Miss Foo with us. thanks for your ~~lullabies~~ ~~lessons which lead me daydreaming~~ ~~bookmark~~ TEACHINGS. shall not disappoint you like i did in the June 07 Paper :P

some of us with Miss Thian, Mdm Ee and Mrs Goh. Miss Thian is the one which pulled my marks for Combined Humanes all the way from C5 to A1 last year Term 3 (i have no idea how it was done) and the A1 is maintained... till now! :D (not counting the screwed B3 during Prelim II) while Mdm Ee is the miracle worker in Math for many people. Math is made such an easy subject under her teachings and i guess everyone has benefitted even though it was a short 4 months with her.

oh ya, wonder why the heck everyone is pointing at Melphin in the photo? because ~~Mrs Teo~~ MISS THIAN instructed us to do so. Melphin had successfully offended Miss Thian by pressing on the issue of seeing Miss Thian walking TOGETHER with Mr Teo and chit chatting happily just as we were talking photos with Mdm Ee and Mrs Goh. horhor...

(another cheezy photo on Tawan's blog. read the caption)

yes Miss Mary HUA, we love her suannings and sarcasm and scoldings in class. i was called an idiot and schizo upteem times by her during her English lessons. i think i have to owe it to her for the distinction in English and the help and preparation she had given during the oral pracs. she was tearing when she saw us receiving our grad certs on the stage! i guess we are her first badge of O's students in catholic high, isn't it?

Mr Tan Jit Huih or Jit as Mr Teo calls him. ya those in AMK Methodist, you must have seen him somewhere here or there in church before, because he is in the English service. another miracle worker considering he was a new teacher and we are his first batch in Catholic High. listen to his Chem lessons and your solid A1 is guaranteed. i remembered how shocked i was when i first saw him in the toilet in church last year, the 1st Saturday after school starts. i guess i won't miss him, since i will see him like EVERY WEEK?! haha.

HAHA HOW CAN I FORGET MDM WONG MUI LIN OR MEI LIAN JIE~! the 2-8 students were her pioneer form class in Catholic High too. still remember her lessons or talk cock sessions, and the time when we were punished to stand on chairs for not bring the HCL textbooks!

Mrs Lim Mei Wah, even though she was our Math teacher for 1 and a half years but still, well! i got my A1 under her too :P

(Me and Ingmar with Mr Heng)

Mr Heng, the teacher who has spurred us on during SYF. it was him and his guidance that the band didn't collapse during the SYF period.

ya, not to forget Darth Suah (HCL) and Mr Jeffrey Goh (Bio)! i didn't take photos with them though.

these are the people who have made my 4 years in Catholic High a great one, a fruitful one, even though the principal is well, GREAT.

*act emo again*

haha ya. that rounds up my years in catholic high. to end off this post...

yes, FOOD.

and me sorting out money (you see the envelopes on the table) from the class funds. yup. God bless for the day!

PAE.

2007-10-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

Tzer Han aka Mugger Tan is going RJ. (he's shown interest in the Open Hose tmr)
Thomas is going VJ.
Melphin is going VJ.
Junfeng is considering VJ and NJ.
Patrick is going VJ.
Cuthbert is going AJ.
Sheng Kang most likely follows Pat to VJ.
Ingmar is going VJ.
Xian is going AJ.
Jason is going VJ or NJ.
TAN KAR WOON is going NJ.
Alex NJ.
Tian Le should be RJ.
Ber Fong NYJ.
Benjamin Lim going NYJ with Ber Fong.
Joe En is considering ACJ.
Tawan is going poly to take tourist managements.
*edit: Tawan has decided to go SAJC or AJ as it's hard to get into uni from poly...
Jing Yi has DSA-ed to AJ.
Chueng Wei Jie is considering VJ or NJ or dunno what?
Zong Rui VJ.
Jing Wei NJ.
Kung Yin considering one of the top 5.
Many people from other classes chiong to NJ.
Keyon aka CLONE is going VJ (i hope he makes it).
Yong Jing is going NP to take Accounting.
Moyi is most likely going ACJ.

blah blah blah, i'm merely making a list of the people i know and where they are heading for PAE. alright fine, i.e. i'm wasting time right now. :P

as for where i'm going... well... *shrugs* i've not really set my mind. the letters VTN just keep floating in my mind here and there...

but seems like V is a nicer letter. haha. and i've a direct bus (43) there, which i can sleep for 1 hr, wake up, and still haven't reach the campus yet.

i shall seek God's will and let Him decide everything. that's it.

18 days.

2007-10-04T21:10:00.000+08:00

and i grew more and more tired of it.

anyway, sorry for not updating about my ~~boring and stupid~~ OH SO EXCITING days, as...
1) no time
2) no mood
3) too shagged
4) people monitoring my usage of com very closely (eg. MUM)

time seems to have wings. and muscular ones, because they fly a lot. -_-
it seemed as if yesterday when prelim III has just ended, and oh well... now in 18 days, we are sitting for the REAL THING. shucks isn't?

anyway. here are my Prelim III results BEFORE moderation :
English - 69 B3 (yes, go ahead and laugh)
H. Chinese - 78 A1 (because you don't have the chance to laugh anymore :P)
A Math - 98 A1
E Math - 97 A1
Biology - 82 A1
Chemistry - 89 A1
Physics - 80 A1
Combined Humanes (SS+Hist) - 87 A1
Geography - 75 A1

as usual, they moderated the double math's marks, making 85 A1. but this time round, in order to "get many people to enter the JC of their choice", they moderated the marks in such a way that you can see 1001 6 pointers across the level (well not true, there isn't 1001 people in the cohort). as for the details of the VERY RIDICULOUS MODERATION, i shall not elaborate further. the thought of the moderation is really sickening.

so anyway, after moderation, + the A1 for O's Chinese, i have 9A1 and 1A2 in total :D it means reaching my targets at prelim level. but it's NOT OVER. oh crap.

i began to worry a few days after receiving all my results. what if i hit my peak of studying BEFORE my O's? what if my peak is ALREADY OVER during Prelim III? what if i can't produce the results i've during Prelim III? such worries just kept surfacing in my mind. it's really a scary thing, especially when you start seeing part of it coming true. (i got a shit 30/45 for a June 07 O LEVEL Physics Paper II Section A)

crap crap crap. things are just getting more and more scary.

and with the tons and tons of practice and homework WHICH IS REALLY STUPID AND DUMB BECAUSE I REALLY DON'T NEED SO MUCH PRACTICE ON THOSE SUBJECTS (i.e. Chemistry and double Math) i cannot start on my revision on more crucial subjects (Humanes, Bio, Physics) at all. i cannot even hand in my essays and complete my compres on time. it's totally crap. those teachers think we can take in SO MUCH within 3 miserable weeks. so what's up with "learning at your own pace" eh? tell me how do we dig out time from the day to do our homework when we've to stay back EVERYDAY to DO PAPERS until 4 or even 5pm? things are really getting crazy in Cath High, where human rights are not even respected.

seriously, i rather trade in ALL my moderated marks (that is 9.6+5.5+1.5+ the 5 marks which i don't get for physics) for a 2 week study break. (rather than the miserable 1) i rather get a 3 for English for Prelim III and just do with it. (i've HCL anyway)
to me, studying at home is MUCH MORE efficient than going school and waste time doing retarded practices for subjects like Math. at home, i can study and focus on what i feel i WANT and NEED to study. and not wasting time doing double Math which i can guarantee an A1 unless something goes really wrong that day. in that way i can definitely do MUCH MORE productive work as compared to what i'm doing now. some schools are releasing their O's students quite early, for eg. i know from Moyi that CHIJ TP released their students on 3rd of October (that's yesterday) for their study break. I ALSO WANT!

oh ya. and removing all my moderated marks is GREAT in the sense that it can SHUT OFF MOUTHS of those complaint kings who keep complaining that the Geog moderation of 9.6 marks is too much. (oh yaya, so what? i still got an A1 anyway) even when THAT PERSON HIMSELF has benefited SO much from moderation and also went to BEG for marks. some kind of integrity this guy has.

on the brighter side, why am i worrying so much? i've God by my side. (and all of you too :D) He is my guide and He shall lead me to... eh i forgot what? refer to Psalms 23. but anyway, the joy of the Lord is our strength! (主的喜樂是我力量) just please God in our actions and He will bless us with His strength.

:D alright enough of rambling. time to go and do more stuffs! God bless ya.

PRELIM IS OVER... soon

2007-09-12T14:52:00.000+08:00

OH MAN HISTORY ELECT PAPER IS OVER :D

the paper was quite managable, thank God. i managed to spot ALL THREE essays questions correct, although i didn't study for Germany. (no time) i still can't believe that the school is actually SO KIND to ask BOTH Russian February and October Revolution TOGETHER :DDDDDDDDDDD this is probably the first time in the whole of my exam history which i felt SOOOOO happy with the 2 essays i have written. both were concluded properly at least. but of course suffered a bit in the source-based because 1. no time 2. long time never practise 3. very shagged cannot think as fast. but seriously my time management has improved a lot since Prelim II, how blessed i am :D

had lots of fun at A Math paper, haha ;) quite easy also, A1 shouldn't be a problem, it's just the matter of how close i am to full marks... but quite irritated by the linear law question because have to plot graph and it's very boring and sian doing that :(

honestly speaking, other than the Bio paper tomorrow, the remaining papers are nothing compared to Geog II and Combined Humanes and languages. all Math and Geog I only. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

oh as for the comment left on my previous post, alwayslovely, thanks for offering help, haha, but it happened that double Math and Chem are my strongest subjects :P but i will be VERY glad if you can help me in ENGLISH :D (how to not screw it up that badly)

alright, time to get some sleep before mugging for Bio. God bless!

shagged

2007-09-11T13:29:00.000+08:00

shagged.

hasn't been sleeping well these few days, partially because of my screwed biological clock. (ya, once again it is messed up during the exam period) slept at 4.15am last Friday. yup i agree that it's nuts but i figured out that i had to mug Geography before the weekend, as i would be darn busy. so i slept late and the results were disastrous.

remembered that i felt like fainting during the break before the worship event at Queenstown Methodist started on Saturday. we were all sitting down at the seats doing our stuffs, making noise and playing phones and etc, but i was just sitting down there staring blankly into space, about to be KOed. fortunately didn't la. our song presentation turned out okay, with hiccups here and there but that's not the point haha.

then my biological clock got even more screwed on Sunday. the first thing i did when i reached home after than bathing was to sleep 4 hours straight to 7pm. turned out that when i decided to go on bed at 12am (it was Geog II the next day) i COULDN'T SLEEP. so it turned out that i almost KOed IN THE EXAM HALL before the exam started. thank God, i managed to do my paper with eyes open till the end. so the cycle repeated again, and i felt so shagged during Chem Paper I today i remember staring blankly while checking my paper. (completed the paper in 35min when given time is 1hr) looks like i've to break the cycle now or never.

anyway, yes, Prelim III has resumed.

Geog Paper II - surprisingly it turned out quite easily, unlike what everyone has expected. the whole Population question have answers all found in the textbook :D but the Plate Tectonics question was a bit crappy, when the ask for the causes and effects of tsunami everyone wrote all sorts of rubbish down on their scripts. haha...

Chem - it was an easy one. Jit Huih is a great Chem teacher. how great? just listen to his lessons can liao lor ;) Paper I is quite tricky but easy once you see the tricks. however there is one "What fertiliser this stupid plant need" question which stirred quite a commotion in 4-8. the answer on the textbook was potassium but most of the Bio students (me included) put magnesium as we were taught since Sec 3 that "magnesium is essential for the formation of chlorophyll". then someone went to ask Jit Huih whether that can be accepted he said he will "consider". haha.

Paper II was quite easy also. can't remember a lot about it. the only thing i remembered was there is a stupid urban city in the paper named JITVILLE. -_-

alright, thats all for now. as i have said, i am SHAGGED.

aims and to-dos

2007-09-07T14:40:00.001+08:00

hai... since i am really freaking bored now, let's talk a bit about my aims for O's and whatever that is to come after that.

what i THINK i will get for this Prelim 3
English: B3 or even B4
H. Chinese : hopefully an A1 or A2 at least
E Math : A1
A Math : A1
Biology : A1 if i study
Physics : well, the MCQ was a killer. an A1 i hope
Chemistry : it better be an A1
Combined Humanes : A1 if history doesn't kill
Geography : after mugging like nuts for 1 whole week... it better be an A1

awww crap. it's just impossible for me to get a 1 for english.

what i HOPE to get for O's
English : A2. nothing more, nothing less.
H. Chinese : A1. at least an A2.
E Math : A1
A Math : A1
Biology : A1
Physics : A1
Chemistry : A1
Combined Humanes : A1
Geography : A1

+ Chinese O's, it should make up to 9 A1s, 1 A2. well, it's a HOPE. so must mug hard now to achieve these!

10 things i am dying to do after O's
1. hold a 6A gathering and see Miss Wong (of course not only me, with others as well)
2. get a job and save up $$
3. buy an electric or acoustic guitar, probably around $400/- or so.
4. everyday practise guitar like mad!
5. start QT everyday (yes, shame on me, i haven't been doing QTs regularly)
6. start going to Worship Team practices and get prepared in terms of skills and heart to play for P&W (alright this one is no joke)
7. get some good sleep and make up for those eyebags
8. clean up my room
9. burn those books down (alright, just kidding)
10. start planning for my futures (ok fine, this one is crap)

as for which JC i am thinking of entering, it shall be ~~confidential~~ undecided till i see my prelim results and see who is going here and there... ha. anyway, to clear out and 澄清 all the rumours, i am NOT thinking of entering of RJ and HCJ. i don't wish to be labelled as a rich snob, nor am i one. (a snob maybe to certain people, but definitely NOT rich. i received Edusave Bursary every year till now ok?!)

alright, sudden urge to continue studying for Geog II now, God bless people! (if anyone's here)

bike and guitar and guitar picks

2007-09-07T13:36:00.001+08:00

as i spend time rotting here in front of my computer for a while before i go off to study for Geog II and perhaps History E. and Bio later... let me just spend some time talking cock here again... haha lame.

i went riding the bike today again! alright perhaps nothing exciting to all of you, but my mum has just bought a bike for family use recently and i have been using it quite a lot to go lots of places around Seng Kang and at Hougang too. so today went to Rivervale Mall on bike to eat with my mum as she was there buying some groceries. Rivervale Mall is not exactly near to my house, so actually felt quite 過癮 riding there and back. but well, i wish to have chance to ride to even further places like... eh... Sheng Siong Supermarket near Serangoon? yup. that will be even more 爽.

for the whole week, besides studying for Geog II, i was practising guitar like everyday also :D glad to be able to play 主的喜樂是我力量 by 讚美之泉 now, the strumming of the song is quite complicated but really nice once you master it (well, i will not dare to say that i master it fully though). the chords are not very simple either, with a stupid Emaj7 which requires you to bar at the 4th fret and stretch your fingers even further to reach out for other strings at other frets (its x76444 anyway, if you are interested). not a nice thing to do, as the left hand has to go DOWN and UP and DOWN again to press different chords. the song requires a coordination between the strumming on the right hand and the barring on the left hand too, in order to create "THAT" effect. (haha i dunno a proper name for it nor do i know how to describe it)

haha anyway the song has a very strong meaning too. feel a lot for the lyrics, especially at the part "我要讚美, 無論得時或不得時..." well, basically it just says that we must praise our Lord and give all the glory to Him, no matter during times when we are up or down or anything... got 共鳴 towards this part of the song, especially after our Band's SYF. so that makes me love this song even more, other than its very nice strumming and melody. oh, this song seems to be the current "hot" song in TQ too, everyone sings and loves it, me included :) this song was in our jamming list on wednesday too, beside all the tentative 弟兄會 songs.

oh besides that, i have tried my 2 new guitar picks too. both are considered thick picks, a Dunlop Tortex pick at 1.0mm and the other dunno-what at 1.5mm i guess. the 1.0mm is great for playing rhythm according to some websites, but i find it quite ok for strumming too if you can control well. as for the 1.5mm one, i love to use it to play ~~lead~~ melodies (i couldn't put myself to use the word "lead" since i am still a noobie guitarist who doesn't have a proper acoustic or electric guitar), as it has a rather mellow or richer tone as compared to the lighter picks. but it CAN'T be used for strumming, too heavy already. alright, what i lack of now is a light pick (i lost the .53mm one which Kwan Ian gave me as POP present) used purely for light strumming! can't find any at Yamaha there, as choices are limited. i guess it isn't a very good place to buy guitar stuffs after all. perhaps one day (maybe on the day i am revisiting my dentist @ SGH) i shall go some other guitar shop at the City area to search for that kind of pick. i am so going to dispose the crappy pick i got from Compass Point

haha, seems that i am getting guitar-crazy. but perhaps i can only start learning to be a REAL SUPERB GREAT guitarist after O's. time is really too short and tight for now... awww.

yesterday 05092007

2007-09-06T14:12:00.000+08:00

something really nice happened yesterday.

was studying in church at 2.30pm, since i was supposed to go to ICA at Lavender to update my passport photo, only to realise that i could not update passport photos anymore from 1ST SPETEMBER 2007. wasted trip in short. so after helping Eugene to unlock MY stupid asiasoft account at PCBunk (the GM in MapleStory banned "me" because of him playing drop game), and shopped for picks at Yamaha @ Plaza Sing, i reached church very early when we were supposed to meet up at 4.45pm to practise for the song we are singing at Queenstown Methodist Church coming Saturday.

i shared a classroom (Ang Mo Kio Methodist Church functions as a kindergarten school during weekdays) with a lady since all other rooms are locked. (have to book for use)

then...

i realised the person whom i was sharing room with was my kindergarten teacher in K1! i was a kindergarten student there and she is a surviving teacher, haha. her name is Mrs Len (or is it Lens?) and she was preparing some teaching materials, using crayons and colouring the stuffs... haha. of course i didn't tell her that i was once her student. she was rather surprised that i was there to study, and that i am in the chinese service, (she was asking me questions) haha. how nice can that be to see your teacher who taught you 11 years ago? oh anyway, Lee Wee Siang from 4-9 was her student too (he was my kindergarten friend haha)

so i studied plate tectonics for Geog II (awww...) there while she continued doing her stuffs. and gosh, she was very kind to give away some of her teachers' day stuffs, although i rejected most of them. she said that students give her all sorts of stuffs every year and she really doesn't need them. oh well, so do i not need them too :P but in the end i accepted a bottle and 2 stationaries out of courtesy and they are rotting in my cupboard now. (i don't dare to display them on my table as they have big prints of "HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY" on them)

she left at 4.15pm, instructing me on how to lock the classrooms without the keys (the doors are those "laocock" kind). alright, so i stayed for another 15 minutes before going down to the foyer to ROT and WAIT for people to come.

[oh anyway, just a sidenote, the church has a VERY VERY VERY conducive environment to study in in the afternoon. i am so gonna consider going there to study instead of the library, which can be freaking noisy at times. anyway Jenny DS (導師 in short) once told Yong Jing and i that the rooms are unoccupied after the kindergarten classes in the afternoon, so we can study there, and that she can help arrange the rooms since well, she is an administrator there. but one downside - transport. (awww....)]

so FINALLY. people came. but most of them were late, of course i don't blame them haha, but we couldn't start as the IMPORTANT ONE wasn't here yet. i mean Ziyu la, he is our pianist-cum-instructor. so we rotted in the 副堂 until he came. he wasn't the latest one; Yong Jing the champion only came to realise that he had to come at 5pm when he called me, and he was still at home in Seng Kang, playing computer. how nice is that.

so the song practice was quite okay, blah blah blah... we were working on removing the "s" sounds from the english verses of the song. not a very nice thing to do, since we being rowdy teenagers are darn hyperactive and noisy (yeah right). anyway Yong Jing came at 5.55pm, just 5 minutes earlier than my estimated time for him to reach. the first thing he asked me while practising the song was "hey, wanna go up and jam later?" YIPEEEEEEEE.

so they ended at 6.30pm, they wanted to go off to eat dinner somewhere only to realise that the 2 of us went MIA upstairs. we were actually begging the adminstrators to let us in the chapel to use the drumset (he plays the drum while i play the guitar). they were acting angry with us because of our "unreasonable demand" since we didn't book the room beforehand. but in the end being very kind people they let us off and called the cleaner-or-dunno-who (her name is ROSEMARY? i think?) and she OPENED THE ROOM FOR US! YAY

then we realised that the others were ALL waiting for the 2 of us to come down from the 2nd floor. so i ran all the way down to get the TQ (團契 in short) cupboard keys to get access to the guitar. at 1st they (Ting Ting and Ziyu) seemed puzzled and wondering what the hell we were up to, and when i explained to them a bit they got even more puzzled -_- so anyway got the keys (despite them "accusing" me of stealing something from TQ) and got the guitar out, then there we go to chapel and started JAMMING!

alright, it wasn't really jamming exactly, since there were only 2 pathetic instruments, 2 voices and 2 person. but still we enjoyed ourselves a lot, singing all sorts of praise and worship songs. it was a pretty short period of time till 7.30pm, as we were using the chapel "illegally". ya our skills are actually quite "chui", he is still an amateur drummer while i am not exactly VERY VERY VERY good at guitar (my strumming can go very wild and uncontrollable at times and my chord changing isn't exactly smooth esp. at songs with finger barring). but well! it doesn't matter! what's most important was we had a great experience worshipping God and ya! it provided a platform (wow) for Yong Jing to practise his drum anyway.

[haha by the way, we started playing Mayday songs like 人生海海 since we couldn't think of more songs to play. yeehee, that was very fun too.]

i guess we will be doing more of this, esp. on Sundays after the session (we had just started this jamming thing with Yu Chuan taking turns with him on the drums, last Sunday, since we were waiting for the others to come back from lunch). and perhaps EVEN MORE after our O's.

so we were pretty sad that our time was up, haha not really actually. but anyway, after keeping the guitar in the TQ cupbaord we went to join them for dinner at the S11 beside Jubilee in AMK Central. we reached there only at 8 i guess. but guess all the girls were really slow eaters - some of them were still eating when we reached. so anyway we settled down with the others with our food and ate... it was a TWOT eating with them, since they were spending half of the time laughing at things which we guys (as in, males) don't find funny at all? yup. so while they self-entertained themselves while some kept hurrying us to finish up our food, we continued eating... quite slowly too.

we left that place only nearly 9, walking towards AMK Hub. as the 2 of us predicted, they must be on their way to arcade again (which is a TWOT too), so we decided to MIA ourselves again to go to the FairPrice Xtra to shop for 弟兄會 stuffs. alright, i remembered myself crapping about buying toilet rolls before going -_- so went there to realise that we can't find what we wanted, so we went straight home. i thought we had spent quite some time walking at the basement, only to realise that the others were still walking somewhere near the ENTRANCE while we were walking towards the 86 terminal. goodness, it was really a TWOT. so we said goodbye to some of them (not all were looking) to go home and mug.

it's a long, long journey... i mean a long journey home. so again, it was a TWOT since i cannot mug my Geog on bus. but anyway it was a great day, since i got to jam :D so that concludes my day (yesterday)... with me slacking before sleeping again... haha.

dream

2007-09-06T13:51:00.000+08:00

hmmm. i am dead bored (despite the fact that i am supposed to go study now). so let me just post a bit here.

i guess i have never told anyone about this, but actually, i have a wish which i really want to aim to fulfill by 21 years old. alright, maybe not 21 years old, maybe some time older. the wish is to :

go up on the rooftop of any low building (bus stop also can). with an acoustic guitar. in the middle of the night. when no one is on streets. no cars. not even a dog. just me on the roof.

then i will start strumming the guitar and sing all sorts of songs.

(yes, go ahead and laugh)

i don't think i can fulfill this wish for now as :
1) i need sleep
2) i am under 17, those matas on patrol will just send me back home
3) i don't have an acoustic guitar (JOKE.)
4) i have O levels to take care of

alright, this is NOT a joke. you may think that this is a retarded wish but NO! it's not! imagine having the whole space to yourself and all silent in the night. how great eh? ^^

a proper post with a proper introduction

2007-09-04T14:50:00.001+08:00

hello, welcome!
or rather, welcome back.

i am a 16-year-old-going-to-be, in 2-months-and-16-days' time, i am a no-life secondary 4 student studying in Catholic High School (yes, the school with green short bermudas), in a mugger class call 4-8. i am currently halfway through a major exam call Prelim 3 and it's going to resume as soon as the "holiday" ends. yes, you are right, i am going to sit for my 1st O Level paper named Additional Mathematics Paper I (4018/1) on the 22nd of October, 2007, which is 48 days from today. alright, enough about this. i am in a church named Ang Mo Kio Methodist Church, the place which i grew up in, and yes, i am attending the chinese service (yes, you didn't see wrongly, it's chinese). i am currently guitar-and-bass-crazy, and i hope to serve one day (after O's) and play for Him in P&W. yes, i am halfway here and there, that means neither here nor there. i hope i will be ready, not only in skills (i hope i am somewhere there) but also in heart by then. i play the flute too. i have just passed out (not fainted) from my CCA called the Symphony Band, or in full, Catholic High School Symphony Band. the laodas and the others have been trying to psycho me to play the flute for P&W (they have been doing it for months), but i gave the ~~excuse~~ reason that i have returned the Altus 807 to school and i don't have a flute, and one proper one would cost around $2500/-. but actually, the more important reason is because that i am guitar-and-bass-crazy. a plethora of excuses, yeah?

alright, that was one whole chunk of words for you to digest. surely by now you guys know who i am, yeah? :/

back to square one

2007-09-04T14:42:00.000+08:00

it all seemed like a dream. an utopia. one which i wish would never end.

as i went back to my primary school last friday (yes, it was teachers' day if you haven't realised), i could feel it coming back to me again. perhaps, everyone did. the feeling that you wish you were stuck at 12-years-old. the feeling that you want nothing more than reliving those times. those days. the feeling that you just can't bear to leave the school. for that moment, i feel that nothing much seemed to matter anymore. not catholic high or 4-8. not the O levels. not exams. nothing.

if time can be rewind.
if we've all not left that place.
if we were still like before.
if things were back to square one.

only if.